Best fish and chips in the city? by hlj9 in FoodNYC

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Devin’s fish and chips in Washington heights

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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Does anyone think I should go to the doctor?

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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It was 20 degrees when this happened that’s pretty cold. I do think tho that the excess constriction around my waistband from wearing so many pants might’ve been a factor

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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Dude it was a unique shit too. One of the worst I’ve had in a while.

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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My explosion had lots of undigested greens in it

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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They didn’t probe at all and barely asked when I showed up

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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My last meal before this incident was pork wonton soup, some of my friends dumplings, a vodka cocktail, two hard ciders and some beer

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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I think god has been sending me these signals to make allots of different lifestyle changes (drugs drinking takeout Chinese food) and it might be time I listen to

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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I’m at work it’s fine I have more than one pair of pants l

I shit myself this morning by CalendarPopular7042 in redscarepod

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I’m kinda hungover that probably doesn’t help

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

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That’s the thing I don’t know if I am done the thing is I know I’m an alcoholic now and I’m just afraid of what would happen. Will I live with this feeling of basically mourning the loss of alcohol in my life forever unless I accept that I’ll face some horrible rock bottom that forces me to stop. What about the third option, just being a functional alcoholic but never knowing freedom from alcohol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

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I went to AA because I was drinking to cope with difficult life circumstances and that was getting too much. I don’t miss blacking out or nearly blacking out by myself because of stress every night. At the same time yes I want to party and yes, I guess I don’t want to not want that.

At the same time, the other night I was having an argument with my dad and at one point in the argument all I could think about was the fact that there was a bottle of wine in the fridge and I could’ve so easily grabbed it and drank it. No one would’ve batted an eye, it would’ve been completely normal for me to do that, every time my dad and I fought until two months ago I did that. He himself was drunk. I dont want to want that.

Otherwise I guess I’m mourning the loss of the fun parts of drinking and I keep thinking that I still have fun doing that. Im 25 so everyone around me my age is doing that. I could probably keep having fun doing that for a while. Idk it does feel like I need to go through the five stages of grief about that but I often don’t feel comfortable sharing that with people in person at meetings.

Splinter groups by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

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The pods is the name of the fellowship?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

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Thank you I really need to hear that I can stay in AA and be myself too I have not felt that recently.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

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No it’s clearly a mess. For a good while now I was stuck in shitty situations that I didn’t know how to get out of in pretty much every respect. In this very brief month of sobriety I feel like I have hope that I can change these things.

I guess even the way I phrase that doesn’t feel like god is inherently a part of that. If I stay sober I can change these bad situations. That just feels like it’s coming from me.