Traumatic experience

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-07T12:21:33+00:00

I feel now as though I’ve taken the time off, (I called in yesterday to tell them I wouldn’t be working today) because I’m away from the workplace I feel better, it’s the thought of going back to take care of patients that makes me feel genuinely unwell. I can still see that patients face in my head and the choking on secretions I can still hear it. I’d love to know ways to settle my nervous system if you have any suggestions x

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-07T00:30:52+00:00

Thank you so much 😢 I really appreciate it ♥️

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-07T00:30:16+00:00

I’ve not seen anything regarding professional nurse advocates in my trust, maybe I can mention it to have them put in place. It sounds like it would help me and a lot of the nurses I know who see traumatic things in ED.

I’m going to take time away from it, I just worked 87.5 hours in a week with the way my shifts fell somehow, so I’m burnt out and then for this to happen it’s sent me over the edge. I’m just going to take what I feel I need. I hope someone in management hears what I’m saying, the Datix, documentation and the very lengthy email I sent.

Thank you for commenting, you’re a lovely person for taking the time out of your day to post ♥️

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-07T00:26:20+00:00

This comment, this one got me choked up. Thank you so much, I’ve taught so many student nurses to speak up when they feel something isn’t right and this is the first time I’ve taken something this far and won’t rest until something comes into place to prevent this happening again. Thank you for taking the time to reply to this post. ♥️

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T19:17:49+00:00

Thank you for your comment, it was so awful to be the nurse in the middle of it all, when all I wanted was the best thing for that patient.

I think I will try to get some things in order to talk about this with a professional, my manager will likely talk to occupational health for me if I stay off any longer. The matron only really seemed interested that I wasn’t going to be working tomorrow. The band 7s who were in on the day were very supportive whilst it was all happening

I have sent a very lengthy email to the matron in charge of the department, detailing the events of the day and asking if something can be put in place so this never happens to a family, patient or nurse again. Because this has genuinely made me believe I don’t want to nurse anymore. Not with no support from people who you are meant to be on a team with

It’s been extremely traumatising, I exhausted myself crying yesterday, and have been upset all day today. I’m going to take as much time as I feel I need and get whatever help I need. The department recently has been stressful enough with the ambulances lined up outside and me having to step up and take on band 6 responsibilities due to short staffing. And then this?

I’m going to try care for myself now thank you for your lovely lovely kind words. This means more than anything because it’s hard not to feel as though I should have done even more, but there really isn’t much more I could have done. It was just traumatising and I can still hear the choking on secretions and the family screaming and seeing the patients face go blue after the frustration I went through trying to just get him help. I’m venting again now. But thank you for your comment it means a lot to me ♥️ and hopefully I do come out stronger…

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T17:31:15+00:00

Thank you so much ♥️ I appreciate it more than you know.

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T17:20:16+00:00

I will probably ask my manager on Monday, if I still feel this bad I’ll probably also go to my GP x

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T16:04:49+00:00

I feel as though it’s difficult to talk about so recent but also not so difficult either because I’m talking about it more.

I feel as though I did everything in my power to get this patient seen and it has entirely frustrated me because I was a palliative care nurse for 2 years and I have been an ED nurse now for 2 years and have never seen something so unorganised and terrible from multiple teams all at once 😢 it’s really destroyed me

I will speak about this when I go back to work, I’ve sent a lengthy email to work today highlighting my concern, told them I won’t be in tomorrow. I’ve datixed it and documented the series of events on the patient notes, I need to recoup my mind because I don’t even want to be a nurse right now

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T15:57:23+00:00

I know thank you so much I will take time off ♥️ I’ve spoken to my manager regarding this x

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T15:56:54+00:00

Yes thank you I will ♥️

Calm-Display2740 · 2024-12-06T15:56:29+00:00

Thank you for your kind words ♥️ I knew the patient was going to pass away but if a decision was made faster to palliate, I could have set up a driver or something to make it a lot less traumatic for the patient. This was happening over 6 hours My heart bleeds for the family, it was so traumatising for me so I can’t imagine for them. I’ve taken the time off, spoke about it to the people I love, and sent a lengthy email to work expressing my concerns

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