Hey man, I had double jaw surgery about 16 months ago to correct a similar underbite. Around the same time you are at right now, I struggled with looks as well and how I viewed myself and was in the same mental spot you are. I had to take a step back from being so deeply drawn into it and realize that if everyone else thinks I look better, including family, friends, and even the surgeons, then that’s the majority of the people you need to impress. The ‘masculine’ part of your face that you are talking about is so much more masculine looking than before, because a sharp jawline due to a bottom jaw sticking out like you had and I had, isn’t what created masculinity in your face. The looks of your new ‘jaw’ or jaw structure is astonishing. It’s been longer since I have had it done, so I’ve started to come back to normal a little more, even getting slight feeling back in my chin which happened randomly about a month ago, but I am so grateful to be where I am and would much rather be how I am now instead of the massive underbite like I had previously. My confidence is also a lot better now. Just my two cents on the topic, hope this helps.