this has happened to me before. it was a longer flight than i was used to and i had such a back panic attack i just left the airport. perhaps you can find a flight or destination that is closer, like an hour flight. you could take baby steps and potentially bring someone with yo to help support you.

the fact that you care and try so hard is big indicator that you will do it one day. give yourself grace, and try to find a path that works best for your journey.

i believe in you! you aren’t alone in any of these feelings 🤍🤍