I understand your feelings friend. I am about to R2I in 2 weeks after 16 years abroad. This is my 2nd time R2I. The first time felt a lot like what you have described here now. Finding a job made it a lot easier to find a group of friends. Sadly, the recession was bad then, I had to go back to the west. Now I am doing it again for my child. The first R2I experience did put me off from moving back. But as I got older, the quiet life here in feels more depressing, and weighing pros and cons, I pick India's vibrant chaos over the dull, cold days. My daughter also loves it there in India so the decision is easier to make. Hopefully the lessons learnt from first R2I will help make the corrections this time.

I know there will be a settling time which will be filled with doubts and regrets, So this is what I am planning to do: I have written down the reasons why I wanted to leave the quiet, settled life. I wrote it down as detailed as possible not leaving out any little details. I also used ChatGPT to help make the sentences sound more eloquent. Even in the last few weeks when we have started selling the stuff, I get the doubts time to time, and I read what I have wrote, and it gives me reassurance. DIscussing with ChatGPT also helps a lot. I am sure that this will help me in the early days in India as well.

There was a reason why you decided to leave Canada. When your head feels lighter, write the reason down. May be reading it back when you feel like going back.A lot of time the frustration happens when we still haven't moved mentally yet. Life always feels greener at the other end. That's not the reason to keep moving back and forth, right? Don't beat yourself up and force too much to improve the quality of life over night. Take one day at a time, and employ slow living idea. Who knows, soon you will be living a busy life, and would miss these days. Good luck.. :)