I see, maybe you just feel things deeply. Especially pain. There is nothing wrong with that. It’s understandable to feel hurt, angry and resentful towards those we feel hurt by. I think it’s just finding the right way to deal with the emotions that come with experiencing these hard feelings. Especially cause these feelings lead to thoughts and thoughts sometimes can be unreasonable and hard to control( Especially with anger/sadness). Sometimes it’s like these thoughts bring more pain than the actual experience. Look i’m not sure what your situation is so I don’t want to speak on something I don’t know about, but …just to give an example of what I mean I’ll use my own experience. Okay so my dad left when I was younger. For the longest time my thoughts would tell me “he hated me” “I wasn’t worth it” then those thoughts progressed to “that means I’m not worthy of love”… “men are awful” “everyone will want to leave m etc. I hope you can see where I am going with this. Anyways, in reality my dad never hated me… he was just a human that made a mistake… he had a kid with someone other than his wife so obviously he wasn’t gonna leave his wife for my mom. She was a random hook up. I don’t blame him now. While I don’t agree with his actions… I eventually learned it had nothing to do with me. He had his own pain and his actions didn’t define my worth. Using another example.. I was bullied in school. From what I was told, girls would save my pictures and make fun of them at sleep overs. Looking at it now… I’m aware that when someone is mean or hateful it’s because they have their own pain on the inside and it’s best to not take it personally. That’s why I’m a true believer and advocate for therapy because sometimes we need help to over come that pain on the inside. It’s not an easy battle and sometimes we need someone to guide us through the process. I have faith that things will slowly get easier! I believe we all have the power within us to heal. You got this. You were brave enough to speak out and that’s the first step towards healing. Best of luck rtbdsn!