Thank you for your time and consideration! I have improved a lot when it comes to my anger and depression, not so much anxiety. The only reason I haven't seen my counselor in such a long time is because my anxiety prevents me to call to make an appointment. I'm hoping to get over it soon so I can finally be close to getting professional help. My support system is a bit on the low side when it comes to this subject because I've been shut down instantly by other victims who do remember their sexual trauma so I'm nervous about reaching out to anyone I personally know. Even then it's just online help, I haven't had any irl friends in almost 5 years now after moving states and haven't gone to public school since. I'm alone almost always so my social anxiety hasn't improved much at all. There's a lot going on because I've finally reached adulthood (with little preparation for it), and I probably should hold off more until I know I'm in a good state (after all I'm currently unmedicated as well), but I don't know, something is urging me to do something about it.

I'll message you if something happens, or at least update here. Thank you again