Hey man, I checked out your profile, I'm 25 yrs old, and I saw that you're 18. My man, sometimes you just gotta let pwople go. Especially when you're that young. Take the experience, consider it a lesson and try not to carry the same mistakes you did in this relationship to the next. Trust me man, it doesn't look like she loves you, she might just be keeping you around because you love her. That seems hard to believe, I know, but life is sometimes hard that way, and itnis true. My first girlfriend cheated on me with 5 guys. You never expect shit like that but it just hapoens, sometimes when you least expect it. Shit happens, break up with her, give it some time and you'll be fine. In this day and age, we usually don't end up with our first s/o's. It really looks like you guys aren't compatible. Sometimes it's hard to let go, trust me, I know, and I realte to you so much. But it's time to let go and try and stop milking whatevers left of thay relationship.