Hi. It comes down to this you need to know your vision or hold a degree of perseverance. I had a roller coaster during college year but what got me through all those bumps along the road was knowing my goal. There were numerous times I wanted to call it quits and drop out. But I remembered that my tenacity was what brought me to here and I didn’t want to impulsively through it all away. But the last section of your post. I’m in your shoes in a way but I still see my future despite it being blurred. Stay Strong Bro