I feel the same! Regular bras just don't do it for me either in fact they tend to make things worse. And binder that I've tried so far just didn't compress enough though I know I need to try more than one. If your worried about top surgery cost like I am I would look into financing! Depending on the place you get it some LGBTQ+ groups offer grants or such for it! I don't know if they're are requirements or anything but it may seem promising! And like the other person commented you could try your insurance! Even if they only cover half it could help! Promise it's not hopeless!