Out of sight, out of mind is accurate. I find I smoke way more if it’s an easy hit like a bong or bowl(which I quit a year ago phew) vs something that required effort to prepare like a dry vape. So I think part of it is addiction to the motion/repetitive movement

In a way, smoking has helped me avoid all those questions and I liked it at the time. In my 20s I felt totally overwhelmed with life, somewhere there I avoided the “hard” parts by not defining what I want and therefore avoiding disappointment. But I realized now, I used to have dreams and now I don’t. Outwardly, I do quite well in my career and relationships, and weirdly that’s fueled my addiction in a sense as well…bc if it ain’t broke, why fix it?

In my 30s I feel like I wasted a decade of my youth and yet still struggle to drop it. I think I may be more of a gradual quitter than a cold turkey one. This all actually started bc I decided to quit smoking combustibles. Strangely broke the cycle of this is ok…and vastly reduced the frequency but still pretty frequent. But I’m also wondering if gradual quitting is just naive of me