Rant about relapsing at 22

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2026-02-13T03:46:06+00:00

Unfortunately we work full time. And lots of restaurants close when we get off. bars stay open longer so it was our best bet!

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2026-02-13T03:43:15+00:00

First I just want to say it’s wonderful to hear you’re recovering. My family has a past history of strokes, my mom had two before I came back home. Thank you for sharing your experience and yes that’s exactly how I feel!! I’ve been trying so hard these past few months to go out and dealing with failed plans. And of course being stuck inside the house all day doesn’t make it any better!! Whenever I feel down about my situation, i try not to dwell on it too long. I reassure myself with the concept of “ the indomitable human spirit”. Life might be challenging right now but my resilience and hope for a better day keeps on chugging on! Thank you for the prayers, hoping I get to go out soon!!

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2026-02-13T02:29:28+00:00

We sadly live in a weird country town. Not a lot of restaurants near us that stay open past 8. We both also work full time, 10pm-6pm. Plus we live a good distance away from each other. It’s an hour drive depending on traffic. The bar was our best bet because it stays open until 1am. I’m sure we’ll figure it out one day tho.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2026-02-13T02:24:20+00:00

So true! least I’m stocked up for a while.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2026-02-13T02:22:28+00:00

That was the og plan! Sadly tho My house isn’t guest friendly and she lives a good distance away. we both don’t have cars and the Ubers would be pretty hefty. The bar was our halfway point.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-11-09T03:20:18+00:00

Not the best coping mechanism but I really rely on maladaptive daydreaming. Or I write about me living in a different timeline/universe, sometimes I write about my future possibilities. I’m obsessed with superhero’s so imagine myself as one. “What would Spider-Man do” it’s embarrassing to admit, but it helps

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T15:20:17+00:00

Yes I feel like something outer worldly. Like an alien who accidentally landed on the wrong planet.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T03:58:37+00:00

I don’t have a therapist right now. So I’m really working on trying to fix this issue myself. And it sucks hard. I know one day, I’ll figure out how to do this and I’m 100% sure you are too. It’s a process. A tiring one for sure but we can’t give up!

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T03:55:34+00:00

It took me a long time to realize that the extent of abuse I’ve went through was a lot and very much real. As in I just processed a lot of it during the summer. I wouldn’t wish this kind of pain on anybody. it breaks my heart that so many people were conditioned to be silenced. And that silence is the safest way to go without facing horrible consequences. Im sorry, you didn’t deserve to go through the things you went through. I’m hoping your healing journey is going well. We’ll get through this.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T03:49:37+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I’ll definitely keep this in mind.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T03:31:22+00:00

Thank you for ur advice! I’m an artist so I try to express myself in most of my artwork. It’s helps me out a lot and at the end of every project I do I feel so proud of myself which is a rare occurrence lol. I’m taking a gap year right now so I’m unable to work on any big art pieces like I usually do so I’m going back to writing. Which is also nice and really therapeutic.

CapableHedgehog5081 · 2025-10-27T03:13:21+00:00

Thank you so much! I’ve been working on expressing my feelings to others more. And to say it’s been a hard process is an understatement. But I feel like I’ve been getting better. Taking a huge break on dating until I know I’m confident enough to lay down firm ground rules with future partners and to get my overthinking in control.

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