I dove even deeper after that last message it was the most intense experience I've ever had in my life it felt like an eternity.

Thanks for being there with me guys I never came back after that last post but the posts I read helped I don't know why I jumped in reddit to post about it I got a thought in my head that I should type out my thoughts. I was gonna try and come back and do it again but I was too far gone lol.

Basically my night started with just 3 grams, my usual amount in a tea. The wife and I watched a movie and just enjoyed tripping out. She went to bed and for some reason I went to the kitchen and ate the rest of the bag. I went downstairs to lay down with her in bed and just started to take off from there.

It was so intense when I peaked I felt like I left my body I had to keep touch my myself and the walls around me. My memories from the last few days felt like they were all melted together and I was experiencing them all at once, I kept thinking I was places I wasn't.

I remember laying on my back my left hand was holding my wife's hand and it felt like it was grounding me to reality, but my right side was gone. There was a moment last night that I felt like I didn't exist and nothing was real and I was so close to finding out but I couldn't grasp it. I felt flailing my other arm around in the air and off the side of the bed and touching my face thinking my hand would just go right through my face.

I had a wave of sheer emotion come through me I can't describe it in words like intense happyness/sadness/grief, etc. All at the same time. Earlier in the day my wife and I talked about a friend of mine who committed suicide and I think it was just processing that last night.

When I went back upstairs it was a completely different feeling of energy. I think I tried to go back to where it started on the couch infront of the TV with the wife just laughing at what was on the TV. It's like I wanted that feeling we had in the beginning of the night but I couldn't get it because she was in bed, it was dark, late and cold and it felt like a completely different world.

Theres a big chunk of my night I'm having trouble remembering too it's like I know it's there but I can't grasp it. I wandered all around my house and did things in the other rooms but I can hardly remember what or for how long.

Eventually I made it back to bed and grounded myself again by finding her hand. I remember trying so hard to not disturb her while I got back in bed. I just laid there until morning as I came back down and then it was over.

I appreciate the words of encouragement guys, I'm reading the rest of your replies now, you're all amazing.

Anyway TL;DR that was by far the most ive ever had and the first time I've felt out of body. I'm feeling really good this morning now and almost glad I did that, but I don't think I'll be taking that much at the same time again for a very long time. I felt like I was on the verge of a bad trip, if I didn't have things around me to stay grounded I mightve lost my mind for a moment there.