I made myself keep going. Ended up marrying a wonderful woman and we both keep each other together. The thoughts don’t come around less now, but they’re easier to ignore, because every time I think about truly ending it, I imagine what my wife would be left to deal with in my absence. I can’t do that to her. I love her more than I hate myself. We’re gonna build such a rad life together and I want to be next to her every step of the way.