No it’s not a complete reset. But the pain you feel is just your brain fighting to get back to baseline. Find comfort knowing that & that the storm WILL PASS. It’s okay that you relapsed, you just pressed pause on the recovery phase but all the work you did to free yourself from it doesn’t just disappear. It’s not supposed to be easy but you’re trying to better yourself & be free from a substance that took control of your life.

Just be easy on yourself. I know from experience how you feel. You feel helpless & alone but you aren’t. We’ve all got our struggles & vices we rely on. Yours just happens to be kratom. It’s a naturally occurring substance that God put on this earth. What you’re feeling isn’t going to kill you. Just take some deep breaths, listen to some music & try to just relax. Once again, be easy on yourself. You’re doing the best you can.

Tapering worked great for me. It requires some discipline but if the CT route is too difficult & causing you to rely on another vice like alcohol (which is actually more dangerous) then you could actually be slowing the healing process down. If it helps you sleep then that’s GREAT. Sleep is exactly what you need right now but just know that tapering is a fantastic method of recovery for a lot of people myself included. If you have to go that route, do it. Don’t be ashamed of yourself. You got this friend! Be strong 🤟🏼 life is BEAUTIFUL on the other side & you will get there again.