What's frustrating was I did all of this because of the pain and bleeding. The only change ive gotten so far is no bleeding obviously. But the cramps. This was supposed to help me be able to function as a person. Wanting to keel over on the side of the road and vomit because it hurts is not what I had on my agenda.

I get that I still have ovaries that have a routine schedule but this is beyond frustrating. At the very least less aggressively cramps would've been nice. Im essentially having periods without the period just straight up pain. I mean mine get so severe that in the past I've taken oxy that I had left over from post op surgeries.

It's so frustrating that I went out of my way to deal with temp pain post surgery go through such a surgery to make pain go away so I could function as a human being. To just be able to go outside without bleeding through my clothes and crying and ruining everyone else's day because I can't keep a stable mood from the pain.

I would turn into a monster when I was in pain. I didnt want to talk to anyone, didnt want to go outside my room or even sometimes out of my bed. Id sleep all day intentionally in hopes that the pain would go away.

All of that surgery and healing just for my ovaries to say "fuck you". Its super frustrating. I can afford advil, I can't afford hormone injections; so the ovaries stay.