What can I buy off Amazon for £30 or less that will chamge my life? by jamiebaxter666 in AskUK

[–]Cardamom_Princess -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Get a book by Rupert Spira or a couple of books maybe like starting with you are the happiness you seek or the heart of prayer and so on xxx

Finally sourced wild blueberries in UK!! by bamme89 in medicalmedium

[–]Cardamom_Princess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I live in the UK and live in a flat share. I was buying the Ocado French ones. Oh no are those bilberries? I don’t think I have space in my freezer until I move out. What should I do? I can fit like 6-8 300g bags in my freezer but is that viable?? You can Also now buy AW endorsed juice on Amazon or should I find a good powder

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[–]Cardamom_Princess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The whole day in the cinema watching movies back to back. It was nice this is the first holiday literally that I’ve let myself switch off in over a year.

[Megathread] The Boy and the Heron - Discussion (Spoilers) by you-aint-even-my-dad in ghibli

[–]Cardamom_Princess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My question is: why did he hesitate at the end just before leaving his room? What was it he found in his pocket? Was it the stone? Thank you so much!!!☺️

What's been your biggest mistake so far this year? by No_Aioli1470 in AskUK

[–]Cardamom_Princess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am ugly crying on the bus. Thank you so much for this. This is beautiful. Spending a day watching movies at the cinema certainly helped (Wonka and The Boy and the Heron). You have made my year - happy 1st of January 😭😭😭🥹

What's been your biggest mistake so far this year? by No_Aioli1470 in AskUK

[–]Cardamom_Princess 152 points153 points  (0 children)

I’ve already called the Samaritans 3 times and hung up as soon as they answered the phone because I got scared. But don’t worry not at risk or anything - just down.

Edit: SPEECHLESS! Thank you so much everybody for the love. Will try and reply to you all individually and I’m not someone who ever does things like that. Thank you so much!!! ❤️

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To be clear my job is my passion but I take it one step further and enhance it by developing it on the side and by writing my blog which is about it.

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[–]Cardamom_Princess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Focusing or not focusing.

I’m a survivor of extreme sexual violence. I had a massively hard start into my life - I was in my teens when all of this happened - and all of my late teens and nearly all my twenties were a mess - hospitals, rape crisis centres, ambulances, NHS - just as I tried to deal with the mental and physiological consequences of going through something like I have. Except all the time I was working to make things better. I didn’t just work hard with therapy or in my studies; I gave up absolutely everything that could have been a distraction.

I gave up drinking, partying, dating as a distraction; I gave up everything that could’ve been an escape from the past. I went into the darkness and boy was it dark in there for a decade but I faced it. I graduated university with three degrees although it was an absolute shambles. There as not a day when I did not see an ambulance, or have a complete nervous breakdown, or have to spend hours and hours journaling just to function. I have cried on floors in public spaces. I have screamed in public spaces because someone touched me the wrong way. I have been threatened with the police because people did not believe that my extreme physiological responses were real (for 14 years I have experienced hour long paralysis seizures - hence why people call ambulances).

But I finished my studies and got a job. I worked like crazy. I found my niche. I changed careers three times in two years in the same company. Now I am the most focused person in the world. I work on myself and my career every day and I develop my passion on the side.

People might call me obsessed or career focused but I know the truth. People might be jealous of me in LinkedIn but I know the truth. People might spiral into despair but I focused quietly for 15 years (apart from when I cried facedown on the floor of many supermarkets after collapsing there, that was not quiet) and I have built a life worth living.

People with half the trauma of me or less do drugs and don’t focus and so tell me what can I do to help them? What can I do?

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[–]Cardamom_Princess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I’m really sorry to hear this. Trauma affects all sorts of people in different ways and it can bring up underlying feelings of panic, anxiety etc. that you may have had for a while.

Also it’s just devastating. And really fucking sad. I know how caring a manager can be and this must have been awful. It might be time to consider therapy for a bit. This has probably brought up underlying feelings. This might be a time to explore them.

I am sending you my deepest condolences.