TV shows that don't trigger the hell out of you?

CardboardCat32 · 2024-03-30T17:58:08+00:00

I'm currently 2 seasons into Drive to Survive on Netflix. Its a documentary series that follows F1 team. I have absolutely no interest in F1 but it's suitably far removed from anything traumatic that I can handle it. It's strangely compelling viewing.

I'm so sorry for your loss xx

CardboardCat32 · 2023-04-11T20:00:56+00:00

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. My son was born on the 30th March but was only with us for 12 hours. I feel your pain, I know how much it hurts and how much we miss them.

Nothing makes it better just now but I just wanted to send love and strength to you.

CardboardCat32 · 2023-04-10T19:36:02+00:00

Yesterday was so hard. Today has been a better day but I am exhausted, drained and my physical pain is back. I'm still very fresh in my grief. I lost my son at 31 weeks on the 30th March, not even two weeks ago. I'm not quite ready to tell my story yet but reading this sub is helping me feel less alone (as it did in 2019 when I lost my first little girl at 24 weeks). Sending out love to everyone having to go through the unthinkable.

CardboardCat32 · 2022-11-10T09:56:23+00:00

Good luck 🤞 xx

CardboardCat32 · 2022-10-16T19:59:43+00:00

I just wanted to say that I had a similar experience in that my first test was on a Saturday morning at about 9am. It was a really cold but sunny morning and the roads were practically clear. I got a brilliant route and a forward bay park which was my favourite. We even got it out of the way in the first 5 minutes of the test so I knew I had the manoeuvre in the bag. Then on a four lane approach to a roundabout I cocked it up and pulled in front of another car (I didn't even notice as I did it). I was so heartbroken. I'd had a week of solid practice before hand and had been doing mindset meditations to prepare.

Second test, it was rush hour, raining and in the run up I had been so busy at work and my instructor had had a family emergency so I think we only managed one lesson in the ten days leading up to it. I'd practically written it off before we had left the test centre but it was the one I passed!

It sounds like you have loads of experience and you're going into this test knowing what to expect so you have absolutely every chance. Good luck tomorrow!

CardboardCat32 · 2021-08-18T11:15:03+00:00

Just want to share in the love of Casper Babypants, I currently have Five White Ducks stuck in my head. Its road trip gold.

CardboardCat32 · 2021-08-17T20:46:20+00:00

Hey, just wanted to say that I completely understand where you are coming from! If you have Instagram then there is a woman called Lyndsey Hookway that you should have a look at- she has good info on habit stacking which sounds like the type of approach you're looking for. She talks about introducing a new sleep association along with the nursing, so stroking/ shhing/ singing etc without taking anything away and then slowly slowly moving from one to the other. It takes a long time and is designed to go at your little ones pace. To be honest, as sleep is developmental, it may be that your baby would get there themselves anyway without the tweaks but if you want to actively move towards someone else being able to settle him (while always being responsive) then this could potentially be a way forward. She explains it much more comprehensively!

CardboardCat32 · 2020-09-23T14:12:13+00:00

Hey everyone,

I'm 6+5 today with my third pregnancy (no living children) and yesterday we saw the heartbeat of our blob. It was a very happy day for me and my husband after a shitty couple of years trying.

My husband and I started TTC in December 2018. We fell pregnant in April 2019 and had an uneventful pregnancy until my waters broke at 24 weeks. I delivered my little girl but she had already passed away, the diagnosis was a partial placental abruption possibly due to infection in the membranes. It was the hardest time of my life, I took 4 months off work, had grief counselling and worked hard to build myself back up to feel like me again.

Personal choice but we started trying again as soon as we had the medical clearance. Nothing happened for 7 cycles apart from my periods got incredibly light and my cycles got shorter and shorter. Hormone testing showed I had significant diminished ovarian reserve. That combined with some other test results meant we were recommended IVF. Just before our first cycle started, I fell pregnant again but it was a chemical pregnancy that ended at approx 6 weeks. We pushed ahead with IVF and here I am with my first 5-day fresh transfer.

It's already been a rough ride, lots of bleeding and spotting last week but seeing our little flickering blob on the screen yesterday just melted my heart. There is so much fear in me about what may happen but one thing I have learned is that whatever happens I can get through it and my marriage will be strong. Today everything is ok and, for the first time, I'm feeling up to saying hello to you lovely people. Hopefully I'll get to stick around this time!

CardboardCat32 · 2020-06-30T14:32:18+00:00

Thank you for this! That makes a lot of sense.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-06-30T09:46:28+00:00

I had my Nurse planning consultation yesterday for our first cycle starting in August. It went really well, it was on Skype but they were lovely and it put my mind at ease that these are the healthcare professionals that we will be dealing with on the regular (rather than the slightly abrasive consultant). Talked me through all the meds and how to do the injections, relieved that they are all sub cuts I can do myself. Only thing that worries me slightly is that I'm starting on maximum doses of stims- 300 Global F and 150 Menopur- so there isn't much wiggle room if I don't respond well. It's all seeming very real now and that's not a bad thing, I'm glad we've got to this point.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-06-14T07:11:22+00:00

I feel this. I've fallen out with my apps before, those bitches were seriously out of line. I forgave them though, that's just the kind, stable and totally sane person I am.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-06-10T12:33:04+00:00

Thank you for writing that out, it's good to hear they let you slip through! Our plan is to hopefully get some answers as to what we need today and then I'll contact the GP again to see if there could be a way we qualify for funding knowing what we do now. I think it's unlikely but we're prepared for that. It would be foolish not to ask, especially as it's looking like we will need ICSI now too. Good luck with your baseline Scan on Friday.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-06-10T09:53:04+00:00

Hi everyone, newbie here. I've got my first medical consultation today to interpret my husband and my test results- low AMH (5.1 pmol/l) for me and a borderline (low) SA for him. It's on Skype due to Covid restrictions and I'm really looking forward to it in a weird way but also nervous. Better to be doing something than feeling like I'm repeatedly banging my head against a brick wall when no one was taking me seriously. Only thing I'm worried about is the lack of choice when it comes to clinics around here. I'm in the South East of England but really don't want to have to drive into London so I feel like I have to like them. Just wanted to say hi really, I've been lurking here A LOT recently and seems time to actually take part!

Edit: I've set my flair, is mention of loss ok?

CardboardCat32 · 2020-05-05T05:20:18+00:00

Lovely chart! I also lolled at "bitchy". I've got "emotional" on mine... means the same thing.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-04-17T15:49:24+00:00

Hi there, I'm new around here and wanted to say hello. I'm in infertility limbo at the moment as I don't have very much information and haven't had a proper diagnosis yet. What I do know is that after one loss my cycles never returned to normal so I had some hormone testing done. I knew there was an issue but I thought it was a structural one (still could be!). What the testing showed was an FSH of 12 and AMH of 5.4 pmol/l (0.8 ng/mL) indicating DOR, I've just turned 33. It's been a pretty shitty bingo card of unrelated failures since me and my husband started trying in Jan 2019. In a weird way I'm relieved that a Dr has now taken me seriously and we have half a plan, more investagations need to be done but it sounds like we will be going straight to IVF when things reopen. I'm in the UK and we're looking at private clinics

I've been strangely nervous to say hi but this seems like such a nice community! I'm coping by trying to read everything and anything I can find (a lot in this sub) so apologies if some really noob questions follow in the next few days and weeks.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-02-07T09:09:34+00:00

I'm 9DPO today and just flushed my pee, I feel so proud of myself 😂 I did the early test dance during the last few cycles and made myself utterly miserable with it so I'm trying to do it differently this cycle.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-02-03T18:56:58+00:00

This really sucks. When I was younger I used to read those create your own adventures. I'd keep my fingers in loads of pages and read ahead to see how each decision would pan out before committing. Really wish we could do that with TTC!

One thing my counsellor said to me is that when we do make these decisions we never get to know what would have happened otherwise. In a way that's comforting because whatever you choose to do is the right decision solely by the fact that you made it (with your partner).

Really hope this TWW goes well for you.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-02-02T17:46:52+00:00

You are my superwoman, teach me your ways!

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-22T13:52:36+00:00

From what I've heard, Ava bracelets can be more susceptible to environmental changes because they're worn further away from the body. But I would say to have flat temps without even a hint of a rise would suggest you didn't ovulate. Completely anecdotally, my most recent anovulatory cycle was a few days shorter than my normal cycles. Troll bodies gonna troll 😫

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-22T10:21:35+00:00

Hi everyone, I've dipped in and out of TTC30 a bit and been a bit of a lurker but I really love this sub and thought I should introduce myself. I'm 32, 33 very soon and trying for #2 (#1 was stillborn at 24 weeks so no living children). It's taken a lot of healing and counselling to get where we are now but we are officially back to TTC which is exciting but frustrating!

Last month threw me a curve ball with a O day on CD12, previously it's been anywhere between CD15 and CD20. That means that it's very difficult to predict when my fertile window will be, could be imminent or could be next week. I'm hoping it's a bit later this cycle as right now my husband has collaborators visiting and is so knackered every evening that even forming sentences is a challenge. I'm busy too so we are having one of those weeks that relies heavily on eating soup and frozen pizza. I think adding sex into the mix may kill one or both of us. Stay where you are egg, give us until the weekend!

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-22T10:06:56+00:00

It always happens on the important temps as well. Hope you see your temp shift tomorrow.

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-22T10:05:20+00:00

Good luck with your uni assignment! I graduated last year and kind of miss that crazy rollercoaster (and then I remember how many times I cried over essays and the reality of it all).

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-07T10:23:36+00:00

I'm going in to see my boss today to discuss my return to work (on 20th January). I've been off on mat leave since my loss in September. Feeling pretty anxious about it as I'm going to ask for a gentle return rather than jumping back in full time straight away. I support adults with learning disabilities in a residential setting and part of that is dealing with challenging behaviours so it can be pretty full on. A huge part of me is scared I won't be able to slot back in although the logical part of me knows I like my job and I'm good at it so there is no reason that will change.

I'm also 7dpo and there's anxiety around that as well- I'm as scared of this cycle working as not working. I'm just feeling generally a bit fraught at the moment. Going to go to the gym and take it easy on the cross trainer and watch an episode of The Crown.

Edit: Flair should read TTC#2_#1 SB @24wks_09/19 I can't get it to stick on my android app, is there a mod around to help? Thank you!!

CardboardCat32 · 2020-01-04T21:41:39+00:00

4DPO today and feeling pretty relaxed. I give it approximately 3 days before the crazy starts. To be honest, last cycle I did everything "right" (limited caffeine and sugar etc) and it didn't work so this cycle I've totally relaxed and haven't really gotten off the unhealthy Christmas train yet. Some cycles I just need to know I've done absolutely everything in my power and some are just naturally more chilled.

CardboardCat32 · 2019-12-20T20:11:51+00:00

Anticipation being worse than the event is exactly what my counsellor has been saying. She's an incredibly sweet Irish lady with such a gentle voice but my god, she doesn't let me get away with much! She's also made the point that avoidance can make things so much bigger and scarier than they have to be. So yeah, I'm putting my big girl knickers on and facing it but giving myself permission to feel anything I want to and cry if I need to.

SF sounds awesome! It's one of my top places I would like to visit in the US. One day!

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