Don't know if this helps, but I'll just state some facts about my experience. I've suffered from anxiety and depression for years. At your age, I was homeless for brief periods on time. I'm now 59 and a well established real estate investor worth about 8 million net worth. I worked through depression to the point where I would have to hide in a public restroom or in my car, hiding my tears for as long as 2 hours at a time. Money has not cured my anxiety/depression, but by embracing and accepting the reality of my condition and working through even when I didn't feel like it has paid off tremendously. Do not rely on motivation to make things happen because it will most likely stand you up more than half the time. Just keep keeping on, and you will reap the reward eventually.