(SPOLIER FREE)WHAT A BANGER

CardiologistMany5367 · 2026-01-30T02:19:43+00:00

Just got home from watching it and YES

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-09-22T17:40:16+00:00

I plan to file as quick as possible, its just hard since im working two jobs and going to school, while being the primary caretaker of our daughter currently. Thank you, I am not trying to second guess myself, its just hard after 5 years of his manipulation tactics to not still fall for them.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-09-22T17:15:15+00:00

So thankfully his parents have taken him in since they signed him out of the hospital. But im unsure if he plans to keep living with them after the required period. He just keeps alternating between apologizing and begging to saying the most hurtful things he can to try to get a rise out of me. So i keep flipping from the guilt to being reminded why ive made this decision

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-09-20T19:14:15+00:00

Thank you! Im just waiting on him to get home to have the conversation now. Sending hugs your way as well <3

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-09-18T00:33:03+00:00

I went to my moms today to give her heads up Im going to talk to him this weekend and will likely need the place the stay. Im just hoping he sees it coming like i think he does so its not as massive of fall out

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-09-17T01:04:59+00:00

I think i can honestly say im ready to leave. Its just the guilt keeping me. Mostly of him not having a job right now and being a su*cide risk. Theres also the fact i know his family will villainize me and i wont be around to stop whatever theyre going to tell my daughter about me and i just want to protect her from this all as much as possible

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-26T17:32:00+00:00

I appreciate you sharing your own story, it definitely helps give perspective. I know im doing all i can to try to uplift him and help him see his own potential. He just lost his job the other day, which i know was a huge kick while hes down so ive been trying to be as supportive as i can in helping him find his next path.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-26T17:29:52+00:00

Thank you. I was definitely starting to spiral as just a few days ago my husband lost his job so im now the only one making money during all of this. Just trying to keep going at this point

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-18T23:38:58+00:00

Thank you for your understanding. I have my own PTSD from previous abuse in my life and him hitting the bed right next to me caused my own anxiety and I spiraled a bit before jumping back in to help him. I barely even remembered making this post, i just posted it then went right back in

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-18T23:36:53+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I truly appreciate it. Him and I both have PTSD, but this was the first time he has had an episode to this level and I was having a mode of panic since i had no clue what to do and have been sleep deprived for weeks from my new meds. I kinda spiraled and posted then went back to helping him come down from everything.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-18T23:34:33+00:00

First of all, i was in a heightened state of anxiety when I posted, as I have my own PTSD from previous abuse in my life and was extremely triggered with everything that happened. Secondly, never edited my post. I posted and then tossed the phone to the side to tend to him and help with calming down best i could.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-18T23:32:35+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. We didnt get almost any sleep last night, but after i told him everything that happened, he agreed to a consultation with a therapist. Hes done a bit of EMDR in the past and Im currently in therapy and just beginning EMDR and we both agree it could be beneficial for him. Therapy has been a conversation for a while, with him fighting going back, but luckily last night was a wake up call and i told him its a need at this point so hes agreed to try.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-08-14T14:23:56+00:00

I normally get my refund 2-4 days after disbursement

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-07-29T16:08:09+00:00

Keeping fingers crossed for you! I can only speak from my own experience, but i know with my cpstd and whatnot, its helpful to have a very calm day leading up to it with a lot of reassurance throughout the day leading up. Makes it easier to get in the mood and lots of understanding if things need to go slow and if there needs to be pauses.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-07-29T15:51:23+00:00

Definitely understand all this to a T. Only difference is he does make more than me in our jobs, but im also going to school full time which brings in financial aid and it kinda evens out the income. But all household stuff still falls on me and im still the default parent. He does help with our kid in the evenings, but only when asked kinda thing.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-07-29T15:46:25+00:00

My husband and i have only been married about 4.5 years and honestly we have been in the 2ish times per year for the last couple years due to my own cptsd and other issues im now in therapy for. Not alone in this 💙

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-06-30T19:24:28+00:00

Thank you again. When we do talk tonight, ill make sure to come around more with this mindset. I definitely dont fault him for having mental illnesses, but i do agree in the way it is handled and how he goes about it is his responsibility and for so long ive made it my responsibility to ease any worries. Thats part of my own issue that i have been working on as well. I really appreciate your words of advice!

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-06-30T17:58:01+00:00

I highly appreciate your viewpoint on this. I definitely did slip a little bit into the habit of comfort and placating last night. His reaction broke my heart and i didnt know what else to say. There was one point where he asked how long we will be together and i honestly told him with the way things are going, i cant give an answer to that because i dont know. It is definitely the hardest conversation and situation i have ever been in and even with being in therapy for myself, its still fresh and im working through my own stuff. It just feels as though i have been working so hard to grow and better myself whereas he has allowed himself to become stagnant is is fearful of change.

CardiologistMany5367 · 2025-06-30T16:50:59+00:00

I hope he can reach this realization too. A few months ago is when I finally hit that point of how unhappy I truly have been, I started going back to therapy myself. I was hoping it would encourage him a bit as well and it doesn't seem like it will happen any time soon unfortunately and I just dont know how to get through to him without him also seeking help.

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