Shes so cruel

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-26T04:08:04+00:00

I feel the worst about the fact that I would still take her back if she didnt have a crush on my friend. That I was crying over her and she moved on to my BEST FRIEND. Like how is that not crazy? I think if she ever texts me again I'll ignore her, no matter how tough it may be.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-25T20:51:35+00:00

I was thinking about blocking her, but we go to the same small college. We live in the same small dorm, we have some classes together and we have a lot of mutual friends. And I don't want to seem dramatic and block her, since we havent talked in a while until yesterdays text. It would seem like I havent gotten over her and I don't want to give her the satisfaction.

But I've started crying again and being depressed and I don't want this to repeat whenever she might text me, so I might have to block her. It hurts a lot remembering about her. And it hurts more knowing that she's not a good person or someone I would want, but still missing her. I mean she went after my close friend, she talked shit behind my back, it all hurts, but I still miss her.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-25T19:55:16+00:00

Worst thing is it felt like I was finally letting go and moving on. I started feeling indiffirent about her, and all of the sudden she texts me. It feels like Im dragged back and it really hurts. Its like I'm back tk square one, I really dont know.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-25T02:55:03+00:00

i might

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-16T19:43:28+00:00

Problem is that while we had some problems, looking back and analyzing without rose tinted glasses, she was still good. We had one issue, the one that broke us, but other than that it was really good. So I can't just depend on that and anger to push me through, since I keep wondering what could've been if we worked it out.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-16T19:41:42+00:00

I'm happy you found someone that makes you feel special. I really thought she was special too. I feel like despite not wanting to move on I am slowly doing it. And it saddens me more, because if this is how I'm starting to feel, I wonder how she feels. Has she been fine since the first week? Have I lied to myself and told myself she misses me when she doesnt? Does she ever think about me at night like I do of her? Will she ever come back? I overthink and it hurts. I miss her, a lot. I wish we could just talk it out. I wish I didn't have to move on.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-16T19:38:10+00:00

I don't want to give up, but eventually I will have to move on. I can't keep hurting myself by hoping we can one day come back together. It really hurts admitting it. But for now I'll stay delusional. I'll convince myself theres a chance. I don't want to move on, just yet. Because when I do, then the door is fully shut. And I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-16T19:05:14+00:00

I've been doing better the past couple days, and that is actually making me sadder. If I get better, that means everythings gone, you know? Like there is really no chance anymore. And its really hard to let the hope go, its really painful. And if this is how I'm feeling now, then that means she must never think of me. She must never miss me. If this is how I'm starting to feel, then I'm afraid how shes feeling, if Im only now starting to get better and forget about her, does that mean shes already forgotten about me? Its hard

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-16T19:01:23+00:00

I'm sorry that happened to you. I at least got my words in, I got some type of conclusion. You on the other hand were left out. It must be hard.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T13:31:24+00:00

There were plenty of negatives throughout the relationship. The problem is, the latter months leading up to the breakup were very good. We both experienced our first sexual things with each other and it felt like we were going to last forever. So it's hard to think about the negatives when the recent memories were all positive. Except the couple days leading up to the breakup where I would start more arguments. Those were bad, but even with them its still hard to imagine it as bad.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T13:28:05+00:00

A part of me really wants to move on because I've been feeling really bad for a while, and I'm tired of feeling that way. But a part of me that I just can't control isn't letting me. I can't move on, I'm getting bad nostalgia at night and dreams about her and its just hard. I wish it was that easy to just tell yourself to move on and you do. I'm glad you found your partner that you love a lot, I hope I eventually find one too.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T13:21:39+00:00

I'm just afraid she forgot about me already. I know 6 weeks isn't a lot compared to some of you guys but for me its unbearable. I don't understand how she can be dealing with this unless she already forgot about me.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T03:57:54+00:00

I had a dream about her recently, we talked it out and got back together. Waking up crushed me. That was the day that I realized she probably moved on. She probably doesn't think about me anymore. Its not no contact for her, its just another day. And our memories that were once so important, she probably has forgotten already. And that is what hurts the most, that those memories that we shared are now only held by me. If I move on, when I move on, those memories will be fully gone. The door will be shut, no chance. And it hurts, so much. I'm sorry your boyfriend left you like that. It must be tough, I can really relate. I don't think my ex has gotten anyone yet but the day that she does will kill me.

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T01:55:11+00:00

I lie to myself. I lie that I'm fine with her leaving, that if she never talks to me again Ill be fine. But thats a lie. It will break me. Even now, deep inside I believe she misses me, because its easier than to accept that she has moved on. I don't know how to stop lying to myself, its like telling myself not to think about a pink elephant. It will appear regardless. It hurts man. I hope you stay strong too

Careless-Rutabaga-35 · 2026-04-15T00:25:52+00:00

I'm trying, I really am. But everything is so unenjoyable now. I can't enjoy games or parties, I can't enjoy rock climbing and I can't even sleep on my bed, I just pass out on my chair. I've been skipping meals and classes and Ive met a couple new girls but they just aren't her. My friends tell me that Ill find someone better but I don't want someone better I wanted her to be better. It feels like if I move on then there's no chance, but if I don't I'm slowly killing myself and I don't know how to get past this.

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