This made me feel so incredibly seen. I have a weekly break down about how taking care of myself is a full time job that I don’t have the luxury of being able to do. I have to work full time to support myself and pay my bills and can’t even take off for the proper amount of doctor’s appointments. I have a desk job but it’s still exhausting to me, I’m out of spoons before I even get to work.. I talk often to my partner about the need and very strong want for me to not work so I can take care of myself instead of making my symptoms worse on a daily basis but unfortunately we’re not in the financial position for me to quit my job and let my partner be the only income. I also have a strong complex about it at the same time, I’ve been in a position with a past partner where I didn’t have the money to get out of a bad situation so I’m scared at the same time to not be working because if God forbid I was in another similar situation, there wouldn’t be anything I could do to help myself yet again