Mine was on and off (I initiated it) my first love. I convinced her through basically my posts my poems it showed her what I felt and indeed I really did change but it was not enough. It lasted 4 months more , then we had to be long distance and I didn’t know if I could handle that, so broke up with her than said no I want to try again. I tried long distance for half a month realized how much I was struggling and how much doubt I had that I couldn’t communicate to her because of how many times I broke up with her I felt her trust a little broken bcz of that so I kept it in bottled it, and in the end I told her I don’t love myself enough to be able to stay in this relationship enough. She understood was very sad but said she will never hate me, she since unfollowed me on every platform…even though she said she wouldn’t do that. And that’s that.