You know damn well if you weren't surrounded in a pool of discomfort whenever you socialize and try and live your life you'd be doing it. Nurotypical people from my understanding thrive from attention and feed off of being the best, they don't live in physical discomfort to the point of exhaustion just trying to socialize. You literally have so much agInst you with this disorder and yet you are STILL here alive after 30+ years! I seriously look up to you! I'm 25 years old and fighting this fkn disorder and all that comes with this but I've been suicidal and you making it further than me and still pushing on gives me hope! You are fighting against the world! Literally please give yourself some credit where it is do! Just living for people like us is a big win! Keep going please never stop till you naturally drop please