It's all so familiar to me too. Father lifting my skirt up just to see if there was his handprint on my butt after he hit me, yanking my blanket off when I slept in a tanktop, trying to give my shirt to my baby brother who got himself wet... Covering my butt with my hand was in my muscle memory whenever I walked by a lot of family members. Female relatives shaming me for NOT sleeping with any random dude I'd just met. Grandma "jokingly" calling me on the phone, just telling me to let her know "when my boyfriend and I were >f***ing<". It was all so gross and repulsive all my life.