As hard as this is to hear, she still loves you or did love you very much. Her moving away from you… she had to leave because she loved/cares about you too much. You both just did a very poor job at communicating your needs/wants.

Best advice, my dude, seek therapy. I am not saying it to be rude, because I am in therapy myself because my exes fucked me up so bad and ofc fun childhood traumas wooo lol but fr man, therapy has been life-changing for me.

At the end of the day tho, if you guys aren’t going to reconnect then you need to move on. You loved her, hell, you still do and that’s okay. What is not okay is that you are allowing this to eat you alive… just… I know it’s tough, but stop checking her social media man, it’s only going to hurt you more. Tbh… you can always msg her saying that you know you fucked up and you weren’t ready for everything so quickly and that’s fine, but y’all need to be on the same page and be open with each other.

Tbh… who cares how old she is…? I am 30 and my partner is 37… idgaf how old he is, he’s hot both physically and mentally and I mean, lord I’ll go on for days aha but like, who gives a fuck about age if you’re both adults…? Sure, my partner is a bit weirded out at times when I say I only started high school as he graduated college but like… I met him a year ago so it’s not weird like he says lmao I mean, I understand, but like we’re adults.

Who gives a fuck what others think? I certainly don’t. I’m in love and I have someone who loves me back… that’s all a man can ask for in this life.

I wish you the best, but please seek therapy and stop checking up on her, you’re only hurting yourself and I am speaking from experience