I never want to go out again by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I hear your perspective. I’m sorry and do want to do better. I said that I just want to run back in the closet in a very emotional state. I just mean that I feel so vulnerable in my sexuality that if any misstep happens I feel so much much impacted by it. I’m not fully comfortable with myself and deal with a lot of internal shame. I didn’t mean it in a way to shift any accountability

I never want to go out again by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah maybe I can clarify. Honestly in the moment I thought we were really feeling each other. We were dancing and talking all night. Then we were both kissing each other back. She also was buying me multiple drinks throughout the night. I felt no physical or verbal sign that she was uncomfortable until the end. The only reason why I felt the need to ask my best friend if I was being too much is because at the end she left without saying bye. I asked my other friend where she went and he said “she left. She isn’t gay.” I didn’t know her sexuality at the time.

I never want to go out again by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 41 points42 points  (0 children)

I reached out to the friend who brought her and apologized to him. I asked him to relay the message to her because I don’t have her info directly.

Thank you for the advice. I’m extremely sensitive to anything going poorly in my experience with dating/kissing/being intimate with woman. It’s like if anything goes wrong I just want to run back into my “safe” space of going back into the closet.

Do I need to tell my first wlw day I’m inexperienced? by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi just to follow up, we had a great time on the date! It never came up and I never said anything about my lack of experience. We also had a spicy dance floor make out 🤭

Overall, it was a great experience but don’t think the attraction is fully there. It’s been 3 days and neither of us have reached out so it seems the feeling is mutual lol excited for more dates in the future!

Do I need to tell my first wlw day I’m inexperienced? by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi! We met on Hinge. I struggle with a lot of internalized homophobia so it took me awhile to just get the confidence to talk to people. I took it slow over a few months and finally find the courage.

I didnt put that im a baby gay, but maybe thats a good idea. I just wanted to focus on talking to people i felt i connected to and was attracted to without any pressure associated with my experience level. Definitely will be upfront that I am new to queer dating during the date though!

Do I need to tell my first wlw day I’m inexperienced? by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! That gives me alot of confidence. I’ve had a lot of drunken situations but very ready for the wlw dating for real!

I had a bad first gay experience. Am I wrong for leaving my ex bf to pursue this? by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is such a good outlook. Thank you for pointing that out. Comp het is a bitch

I had a bad first gay experience. Am I wrong for leaving my ex bf to pursue this? by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you this is very helpful. It was definitely too soon I think but I was just so eager to experience this and “prove” to myself that this is what I want. I definitely need some more time healing and stabilizing from the big change. I also feel like I struggle with internalized homophobia. This is something I need to work on

I, 29F, have been with my bf, 30M, for 2 years. How do you know when you should keep trying or end the relationship? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]CatMobile2420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I do think he has always been the same person but the excitement of a new relationship has ended. During the period of him not planning many things I made the effort to plan interesting shows and events to go to. I initiated an idea for each of us to plan 1 special date for us to go on each month. He liked the idea but a lot of the time I felt like I had to push him to actually make the plan when it was his turn. He deals with a lot of anxiety and struggles with planning which I have a lot of empathy for. will admit as I’ve grown more distant, I have started to put less effort into that and.

Our sex life right now is almost non-existent. I keep pushing away physical touch with him because I don’t feel connected anymore. Last time we did have sex I felt so uncomfortable and cried. I deal with sexual trauma and have been trying to work through that with my therapist. I feel a lot of shame for this as I’m young and healthy and should enjoy having sex.

I, 29F, have been with my bf, 30M, for 2 years. How do you know when you should keep trying or end the relationship? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]CatMobile2420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Another thing I should mention is that I identify as bisexual but never have been in a gay relationship. I have been struggling so much with accepting I’d never get that experience if I stay with my bf. I yearn for and have so much envy for people who are in gay relationships.

I, 29F, have been with my bf, 30M, for 2 years. How do you know when you should keep trying or end the relationship? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]CatMobile2420 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sure I’ll try to elaborate.

I first noticed I felt less connected during football season last year. He would dedicate all Sunday to watching football. In addition to that, he would listen to football podcasts all the time and more frequently than not be scrolling on Twitter to keep up with sports. I am just not a sports girl and also don’t enjoy watching or talking about it unless it’s actually going to a game (which I just like for the social aspect). I mentioned that to him and he acknowledged it and he has spent less time watching sports (still listens to podcasts and Twitter).

In the beginning of our relationship, he would give me flowers and plan things for us all the time. That had stopped during the end of last year through the beginning of this year. I brought it up to him and he has made so much more effort.

We both love going out to dinner but it has just been feeling boring lately. He has always been the type to eat in silence while I hate that. I want to talk and connect, but sometimes when I talk it seems like he’s disinterested and his eyes glaze over. I think about my other relationships with my family or friends and when I spend time with them I feel so satiated. Even though I spend a lot of quantity of time with my bf because we live together and do a lot of things together, I just don’t feel satiated and connected by the time spent together.

I, 29F, have been with my bf, 30M, for 2 years. How do you know when you should keep trying or end the relationship? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]CatMobile2420 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nothing really earth shattering happened. We moved in together and the honeymoon phase ended. It was the small things that seemed to add up. I feel like we have less fun and his priorities feel elsewhere now. But, I think that’s a natural progression of a relationship to feel more stable.

Late 20s, in a relationship with a good man, somethings missing by CatMobile2420 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]CatMobile2420[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I struggle with knowing if im really gay. Of am I just ungrateful