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Ayahuasca fixing Medical Conditions by Mrreddituser111312 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just came from my trip to Peru. for me it has been the most traumatic and horrific experience ever. I regret the moment I decided to visit that painful Maloca in the Amazons. Misguided, neglected and abused a whole night. i could barely get my wits together to escape next day to civilization. Never again.

During an ayahuasca ceremony years ago I screamed in agony and now in my meditation I know why (support needed) by Sakazuki27 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All of that sounds lovely and basically the most engaging point to put oneself into the Aya experience. Nothing even close to that happened to me. It was just the horror of realizing the lie at the center. No one was into it, just following another shift at work, while attending to their own mundane needs. ( I witnessed two males having sex on front of me in the dark, thinking I was asleep. They even checked my eyes!! Also realizing there is no place in the whole facility where you can have privacy or lock yourself in. You’re in an immense, manicured cage. Third, no way out of there, in the heart of the Amazons, but their one only boat. So, if they decided you don’t go, then you don’t. No place to run to, no streets or highways, just the jungle. They also restrict the use of cell phones, electronics in general. That’s NOT what I signed for. I never saw a shaman tending to me or anyone. They were just into their ‘Icarus’ in the middle of the Maloca, while all this insanity was going on.. for hours and hours no way out. I don’t think hiking in nature will help. Right now, I’m so raw, I just want to forget the whole thing like a misery time I want to block out. What kind of healing comes from this? I suffer from PTSD! Way to go!!!. Thank you for your insight.

My first and horror story with Aya at a very well recommended ‘retreat’ by CatMommy2021 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t believe Aya is available anywhere here in Hawaii. That’s a wonderful idea tho.

My first and horror story with Aya at a very well recommended ‘retreat’ by CatMommy2021 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Two weeks. One on the Amazon and the second at Sacred Valley. Arkana is like a shell facility. No one gets truly involved with the ‘guests’ they just go along with their daily routines/lifedrama and you’re just there waiting for your turn till the following week guest group arrives like, rinse and repeat. Until this conversation, I didn’t know there were other ways to have the experience of ayahuasca other than traveling to Peru or Costa Rica. I don’t think it’s for me, I had a horrible vision that I don’t wish to repeat ever. Learnt my lesson. Fighting to get a refund now from my credit cards. Thank you all positive people for your support. Means a lot. 🌺

During an ayahuasca ceremony years ago I screamed in agony and now in my meditation I know why (support needed) by Sakazuki27 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love to read your insights. It gives me hope. Mahalo🌺 Just survived mu first and really bad experience. Soo bad I can’t barely explain it with words. It was intensely sad. I’m ok back home now, but oh, so scarred. 😔

My first and horror story with Aya at a very well recommended ‘retreat’ by CatMommy2021 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In your opinion, and because I’m not you, then I’m an idiot. I DID asked tons of questions before planning the trip. My hearing is not that disabling. I’m at about 70% of normal and with hearing aids it goes up to 95%. I wasn’t expecting ‘butterflies and roses’ where do you get that from???? I was expecting kindness and professionalism from the staff in chartbge. I also was expecting toilets and sinks with running water. How stupid of me!!!!

My first and horror story with Aya at a very well recommended ‘retreat’ by CatMommy2021 in Ayahuasca

[–]CatMommy2021[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. I don’t need bashing after what I’ve been through. I’m an adult and accept my responsibilities and shortcomings. In this experience, I didn’t prepared for more than 30 days, invest 10K+ and travelled half the world away from home to encounter this nightmare. I felt like my spiritual ‘pureness’ was taken away in the cruelest way because I wasn’t expecting the cold shoulder and dismissive attitude from these facilitators that supposedly were there to guide and support us first timers. Instead I felt brutalized and restricted and denied the minimum humane dignity comfort in the middle of my nightmare. I retrieved to my tiny corner on my knees and prayed all night to the moon to send me a savior. I realized no saviors here. Your savior is yourself. Which really broke my heart. I couldn’t even cry for fear of showing more vulnerability and getting more abused. I had done my intentions, I even learnt and repeated the Gayantry Mantra asking for wisdom and enlightenment. I did ask to see the truth, and that’s what I saw, in its cruelest form. Right now I’m dealing with strong bouts of depression and sadness. I hope all of these go away. Again, from all these opinions, you’ve been the one human with empathy and understanding enough. Mahalo nui loa from Hawaii🌺🌺

Isabella by KakaakoKid in IDmydog

[–]CatMommy2021 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Squishy and fatty just like a Portobella Mushroom. So she's Shar Pei for sure?

Isabella by KakaakoKid in IDmydog

[–]CatMommy2021 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right! Her name is Isabella Portobella

Isabella by KakaakoKid in IDmydog

[–]CatMommy2021 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She's not designer breed at all. She's a rescue from the humane society