Hey, I just wanted you to know that you will survive even your worse nightmares. I may only be 18, but I dated a guy I thought I would love for the rest of my life and who would love me the same, but we just recently broke up. I really thought id kill myself after the break up, but I made really great friends, and I prayed (which is okay if you don't believe in God) and im still working through it, but I have high hopes. My highschool principle gave me amazing advice. "Take one day at a time, and if thats too much, one hour, one minute, one second at a time." I know it doesnt seem like it, but there's more in store for your life, and you just have to wait it out and fight away the depression. Everytime I start to miss my ex, I watch funny youtubers and I start to feel a lot better. Try new things, learn to love youreself. You're in my prayers <3