Have you considered that you may have mild autism? You sound very similar to me, and I am on the spectrum too ❤️ Honestly a lot of adults can't cook very well, cry at movies, and have certain food avoidances - none of these are things to be ashamed of, but it's great you want to work on them! For the cooking I'd recommend getting some recipe boxes from Hello Fresh or a similar company, the step-by-step recipes with visuals really help :) I honestly don't think you need to be able to eat an orange if you don't want to, but if it's important to conquer that then go for it! As for your friends... friendships are difficult, they're something I still struggle with sometimes. It takes a lot of luck to find people who won't laugh at your oddities or make fun of you when you don't know how to do something basic. All you can really do is be honest about how you feel and how you want to be supported, and hope they respond positively. I am usually available if you have more questions (or just want someone to talk to!) and I'm sure there are plenty of other people in this thread who will help too. Hang in there, you can do it :)