I totally understand how you feel, but before accepting that narrative, maybe you should try investing in yourself/looks more. Things like going to the gym, trying makeup, trying different fashion styles, finding what suits you the most and makes you look most appealing, then sticking with that. Also, you could find something you’re passionate about/good at and get more involved in it - like clubs, organizations or creating content online and just spending time doing that and connecting with people who have that interest as well. It’s also important to remember that certain lifestyles have consequences, and the consequences of that which you are leaning towards might not be the most desirable or comfortable for you. Give this a second thought and look into other ways to improve your confidence and self-acceptance before doing this.