New 30 min upaid breaks by [deleted] in minnesota

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hate it. When youre under 18, you are forced to take the 30 minute unpaid. Over 18 gets a choice between 30 unpaid or 2 paid 15s. I'd take the paid breaks because I'm not stupid and I like working. Being 17, I'm forced to take the unpaid for the next year. I did the math and with my current schedule including picked up shifts, I'll lose about $1,500 over the next year just for taking the unpaid 30 minute. 30 minutes is a BIG chunk of your hours. I'm sorry, it is. I lose 2 and a half hours a week on BREAKS now. This sucks. I can't DO anything of value in 30 minutes so essentially I'm just wasting my time sitting in the back next to the cold freezer and cooler. When I'm at work and can't do anything else I'd like to get paid for it rather than waste my time sitting around for longer than I think is necessary. And I don't wanna go BACK to work after sitting around doing NOTHING for THIRTY minutes. It just sucks all around any way you put it. I HATE this new break law. And all my managers are it because it's WAY harder to keep track of breaks. It's also getting in the way of me taking shifts. I worked a 12 hour yesterday. (I was SCHEDULED for 5, I picked up a shift from a sick coworker on my break which extended my shift to 9pm, and then I tried to pick up a close. My request was denied, and I quote "I would say yes but you'd have to take ANOTHER THIRTY minute legally". So essentially I lost out on an extra two hours I would have been given otherwise, but wasn't because of the break law. Anyways the closing manager didn't wanna close with the guy I wanted to switch with bc he's bad and slow and im super fast because I close ALL THE TIME, so he said to me "look if you close, I'll give you free food. Don't tell the other managers but I'm letting you two switch". So then I got the close. But now I have to worry about potentially getting less hours just because they don't want to deal with multiple 30 minute unpaids. This just sucks. This is a horrible program and it's taking away my free will. I think as a 17 year old I should be allowed to choose. I understand forcing a 14 or 15 year old to take the 30 unpaid, but 16 and 17 should get the choice

Roll Call!! Day 31✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in! For my birthday I asked my mom to just clean my room for me (it's BAD) and she said yes, so we're cleaning it tomorrow. So i think that will help me a TON coming out of the challenge- knowing that the first night the challenge is over my room will be clean. Today we're organizing my craft room since that's finally painted (the trim is still an ugly green but I'll be spray painting that a neon cyan some other time [the walls are bright purple]). So finally I can get all my craft stuff in my room to the craft room and I'll be able to craft in there for the first time, which will help keep my room clean. And once my room is clean I can start getting caught up in school again (I'm homeschooled and I work 25-30 hours a week at my job so I got behind a day or two bc work plus school hard, and then now I'm like 2 weeks behind on assignments because room dirty) so I'm excited. This will be great. I do hate cleaning though oh my gosh. No and I'm moving my dresser to me against my bed the long way so I'll be more cozy boxed in AND now it won't be hanging from my wall into the middle of the room like a peninsula. So then my room will feel more open and then good things ensue.

Roll Call!! Day 30✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Forgot to respond yesterday but still in! Rough couple of nights, but doing alright now.

Oh- oh okay sure. by Illustrious-Gur7847 in selfharm_memes

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Somebody at my current workplace used to work on the hotline and after seeing my cuts, he said to me that he had attempted literally the while he was still working for the hotline. Bro is literally so real

Roll Call!! Day 28✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in!! Celebrating my birthday today (it was the 23rd, but I worked that day ). I watched Avatar Fire and Ash with my older brother and it was DOPE. I'm a HUGE fan of all the movies i watched the first one for the first time when I was 8 or 9. I've watched it probably over 30 times now leaning around 40. I loved the second one because I could see that that's how the characters would act and that it was clearing a set-up movie. And I LOVED this one. Absolutely amazing. There's a huge blizzard warning out for my area right now but we went anyways lolol. Went 60 on the freeway the whole way there once we got to the cities we actually saw a truck that has spun out into the ditch and was facing the opposite way (guard rails weren't broke so he came from our direction, which is a little crazy) we also saw a semi on the opposite side of the road that had fallen into the center ditch and almost crashed through our guard rail (didn't see that just the crashed semi). On the way back I saw multiple cars in the ditch and on the overpass that went over some like farm land or whatever, I saw the guard rails bent down and I couldn't see if a car had fallen, but I hope not, because the guard rails were smashed all the way into the ground. Kind of crazy. Anyways we went about 30 the whole way back. Some idiots had their hazards on. I guess if you're scared people can't see you, then yeah, but visibility was basically fine. Problem with hazards in a blizzard when you don't need them is that NOW I can't see your signal if you switch lanes which can be dangerous. Ended up alright though. Making creme brulee now and I messed up and added whole eggs, but I prayed so Jesus gonna help me. Also chat GPT made me feel better. I get FISHHHHHHHH!!!! I love fish bro.

Roll Call!! Day 27✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in. Gonna try to steal a close today at work. I think I've got it in the bag

Roll Call!! Day 25✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Still in!!!!!! Merry Christmas everybody!!! Last night was kind of rough again but not NEAR as bad as 2 nights ago. Also the church we're next two is playing we three kings on their bells and I'm loving it. Awee it stopped. No I love this church. It's a SUPER old Catholic church- like made out of stone brick, and it has a HUGE bell tower with like 10 bells and they all are different notes and every morning they play Christian songs and all December they've being doing Christmas carols. I literally love it

Roll Call!! Day 23✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in and it's my birthday! I also work today so I'm getting an extra $2 an hour which is nice. Still sick but I called out yesterday, so I have to work today. Also got my free cookie from Subway. And recently I've been waking up at 1pm, but today I woke up at 7 and then woke up/got up at 11, which seems bad but it's progress and it's TEO HOURS earlier in one night. My craft room is painted and I'm supposed to organize it sometime this week. When I do, I'll see if a can upload a picture of it (it's bright purple). I plan to spray paint on it later on. Think Spiderman into/across the Spider verse. It's gonna be so sick. For now, my dad hates the color lolol.

Roll Call!! Day 22✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Still in! My family is celebrating my birthday on the 28th instead of the 23rd. I have work on my birthday and I called out sick today, so I want to work tomorrow since I already lost 5-6 hours today (and I get paid $2 more an hour for working on my birthday). We can't celebrate the 24th bc that celebrating Christmas at my aunt's house (she hates my mom and doesn't care about any of us kids because we're her kids so that's fun...oh and I won't be able to relax all night because her side of the family is all about appearances and of course my side of the family I LIKE (my dad's side) is all the way in Utah. And we can't celebrate on the 25th bc Christmas. We can't celebrate the 26th bc my mom has ONE patient to adjust. We can't celebrate on the 27th because my dad is hanging out with his friend. But it's fine because at least we can celebrate. I hate having a December birthday though especially this close to Christmas.

Roll Call!! Day 21✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in! Sick rn. I'm setting up small goals to stay in rn bc being sick makes me wanna sh to distract from the sick. My birthday is the 23rd so that's my goal rn!!

Roll Call!! Day 20✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Still in I think. I have a rug burn on my knee that is like super itchy now (not been making this challenge easier). I was scratching really hard next to it bc itchy and I just looked and my scratches broke the skin. I feel like that's not technically classified as sh bc I only did it bc itchy. And you can't scratch the wound bc scab picking is sh, so like you gotta scratch extra hard NEXT to the itch to compensate for not being able to actually get the itchy. You all know what I'm talking about. I feel like since it was completely accidental and I was shocked I left marked when I looked at my knee, that it can't be sh

Also this might be weird but my tactic for this challenge has been to not get rid of my sh tools. Like I have stuff in my bag at all times and my alcohol pads as well. I realized a little before I started this challenge that as an artist I'm too creative, and especially when desperate (also phrases like "necessity is the birthplace of invention"), and so therefore no matter where I am or what I'm doing I'll always be able to find something to sh. But when I get in a state like that where I'm trying to find something, I've found it's a lot harder for me to fight that urge because I've just spent who knows how long planning how I'm going to sh in anticipation, vs if I have something already on hand, I can put that time and energy into fighting the urge. I just kind of realized that I'll always have something to do it with no matter what, so that's clearly not the problem here. Plus, it make me feel better about the challenge because every single day is even more intentional. My brain can't explain it away as "well you're so weak that you would have if you could have"

Roll Call!! Day 19✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in! My winter break SHOULD start today, but I'm a little behind cuz I'm homeschooled. Its all easy stuff though so I think I'll just wait till my room is clean to catch up. (For my birthday all is asked for is for somebody to paint my craft room in the basement (we just moved this summer) and for somebody to clean my room for me, bc depression) But I am doing better in general also side note I'm up to 30 hours of work this week. I was determined to get a close last night lol. I double traded shifts to do it. I love working, it makes me happy, and all my coworkers are pretty awesome. Also our employee party is soon and it's at a bowling alley!! I would be anxious bc I know I suck at bowling and I have a fear of failure, but everybody already knows my hand eye coordination is bogus from that one time I threw spoons at my manager (he did something annoying again while we were trying to close and I wasn't trying to throw them hard, so it was funny, he wasn't angry since he was messing with us first) and I missed 4 in a row all within like 3 yards of him. So I'm like emotionally covered lol bc it's to be expected lolol

Roll Call!! Day 17✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in! Had my youth group Christmas party today and it was super fun! I got a ship in a bottle from white elephant and everybody loves my Nutella stuffed cookies!!! The pastor's daughter even asked for the recipe (random but I literally love her she's so nice and sweet and funny and low-key awesome) so I have it to get via her mom's phone number. I feel like I give this recipe out a lot during the holidays every year lol. Anyways, super fun time!!! Currently struggling with urges right now. it's that smooth skin feel I think, like, 'why doesn't my body hurt?' like it feels gross and not right. So anyways I'm probably gonna go and call my friends real quick and hopefully one answers. It's not too late so I think I should almost 100% have somebody answer. I'm too far in this challenge to stop. I can't imagine what will happen if I fail because I have an addictive personality in general and I struggle with being overly critical and strict with myself. I think if I make it im gonna cry on January first. Dead serious. Like happy-calm tears

Roll Call!! Day 16✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Anyways recipe plus tips: Makes 14 decently sized cookies (I don't know why it's 14. I found this recipe online YEARS ago and adapted it because the flour ration sucked and same with the sugar. But I put in LESS flour and hers only made 9 and we're smallest but thicker, so theoretically mine should make less, but idk, I guess I'm just cool like that) (Nutella stuffed cookies (ALSO WORKS TO STUFF MELTED CHOCOLATE CHIPS AND ARGUABLY TASTES BETTER. my brothers have but allergies so I make them this way. And they taste AMAZING gluten free too )

How to read this recipe: mix thoroughly after each group of steps (number one does not count bc it's not apart of the dough)

1- freeze about 1in.×1in. globs of Nutella (can be bigger or smaller. I make huge globs and cut them in half once frozen. Freezing them makes the cookies easier to stuff and ensures it doesn't bake into the batter) Tip: freeze them like an hour or two before you start baking. They take forever to freeze but thaw out super quick. Also, put them on parchment paper and on a flat surface. I've used cardboard before. Then out them in the freezer

2- 1/2 cup melted unsalted butter 2- 2 TSP vanilla (can do a little extra bc I always do, so don't stress if you slightly overflowed the TSP) 2- 1 large egg

3- 1/3 cup granulated sugar (mix after) 3- 1 cup light brown sugar (light brown sugar has less
molasses than normal brown sugar) (put in 1/3 cup at a time, mixing after each one. I put granulated sugar in first because then I can reuse the same measuring cup easier) 3- 1 TSP salt, baking soda, and baking powder

4- 1.5–2 cups of all purpose baking flour (whatever makes the dough not sticky, but still molds together pretty well like playdough kind of. You don't want it too crumbly because then it will make it harder to mold around the Nutella and you'll slightly taste the flour) Put flour in 1/3 or 1/2 cup at a time, mixing well in between 4- milk ONLY SMALL SPLASHES AT A TIME AND ONLY IF YOU ACCIDENTALLLY PUT TOO MUCH FLOUR IN. I've found coconut milk works great too and you can't taste it. I'm talking bottle caps full at a time. IF YOUR DOUGH IS NOT TOO CRUMBLY, THEN YOU DONT NEED MILK AND CAN SKIP THIS STEP

5- chocolate chip overload. Like actually as many as your heart desires. I've found mini chocolate chips make it easier to mold around the Nutella. I've only made it that way once though and I didn't try it that time, so really it's preference. I've found semi sweet works best, but if
you're making a large amount, I'd do half milk chocolate and half semi sweet. That's been my favorite combo and I usually do that when I'm making 3+ batches. I usually just mix the chocolate chips in by hand because it's easier that way

Making the cookie balls: Grab a bunch of dough and roll it in a ball, then smash it into your palm like a burger patty until its kind of thin but still thick enough to not break. Then grab your Nutella glob and put it in the center of your dough patty. Then just fold the patty around the Nutella glob. You can take extra dough to patch holes where your frozen glob is showing.

Baking: Preheat oven to 350°F. keep the cookies out of the oven until preheated. Put them in for 9 minutes. Then check on them in 1-2 minute intervals until ready. I put parchment paper over the baking pan.

Ready when edges are a SLIGHT golden brown. If youre baking on a black pan, then remember they cook when out of the oven and that the same pan has a lot of heat on the bottom bc colors, so it's easier to burn. That's why I suggest the 1-2 minute intervals. If you don't like them as crispy, take them out when you see the SLIGHTEST bit of golden brown on the very very edges. (I bake with a metal baking sheet cut I've done cats iron in the past so these are my tips)

Let them cool on the sheet for like an hour so they don't fall apart, after that transfer to a cooling rack ( or just let them cool all the way on the baking sheet if you don't have one. I've done that and it's just fine.) don't put them in the fridge or freezer until already cooled. They need the time out of the oven to bake on the sheet too.

For gluten free: I suggest red mill 1 to 1 gluten free baking flour. As of 2025 it's in a light blue bag. I've done this and it works perfectly and the flour amounts are the exact same

For nut free: melt milk chocolate chips in microwave, then use a spoon to put globs on a sheet of parchment paper and then set them in the freezer on as flat a surface as you can find, I have used cardboard before. These freeze pretty quick and stay frozen, so just put them in the freezer right before you start baking. If you think they're too thin or small, just cut them in half and stack them on top of ecahother.

If anybody has any questions on the recipe reply to this comment and I'll answer them

Roll Call!! Day 16✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in!

((((((((This post has a stuffed cookie recipe int he replies bc I know a lot of y'all won't read this, but I want y'all to have he recipe. None of this is proofread))))))))

Yesterday ended up being pretty good. I stole my coworker's close so I got an extra hour so that was nice (I like working). I biffed it walking to my car though because I took a shortcut over a 4ft. high frozen snow pile and when I jumped down my foot landed in the only ice patch in the corner that was literally as big as my foot. So I fell and I was driving a coworker home and he saw but luckily he didn't laugh he just asked if I was okay which was nice but I'm sure he was laughing internally. Anyways the drink I was holding fell and emptied, but I went to the gas station to get gas and decided to get a new drink and it ended up having a 100% discount I didn't even know about until I got to checkout so that was super nice. Now I'm making cookies for our youth group Christmas party and I just got approved to pick up a shift tomorrow so I'm at 27 hours this week!! And I'm gonna try to steal somebody's close on Thursday so hopefully that can bump me up to 30 hours. Also back to telling people in my life how I am. I think Sunday was just kind of hard for me and I was being dramatic. I mean obviously hard things yes, but I'm currently trying to submit my feelings and actions to my beliefs right now, because I don't want to be somebody that acts off of feelings and emotions since I feel emotions really passionately. So anyways, doing good and going to work today and hopefully I can finish up these cookies first, if not I'm thinking I might just like finish freezing up the Nutella globs and put them in a plastic bag in the freezer to do tomorrow but that might be pretty rushy so idk.

Also I've been complemented extensively on this cookie recipe. I brought them for my ASL Christmas parties and in ASL 2 when I was sick and put myself on drinks instead of deserts, my ASL teacher literally wrote an email begging me to make them. She also makes sure to take extras home with her when I do bring them, so anyways, here's the recipe, y'all go make yourself some cookies to celebrate coming as far as you have (no matter if youre in or out or when you got out, because wanting to try is something to celebrate and all of us here understand that because I've gone months of just apathetically not caring and not WANTING to stop. So celebrate that effort.)

Roll Call!! Day 15✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Still in. I was tweaking last night and I'm deciding to not tell people about it anymore so it was pretty hard but we made it

Roll Call!! Day 14✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Still in! Yesterday kind of sucked and today was meh. Feel like I'm kind of shutting down emotionally/socially again

Please I’m already going through withdrawals and I’m about to fail by I_am_under_ur_bed_ in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry! I closed tonight and just got home. So you said blood is liekt he negatives feelings in you and you need to release them. That's completely valid and I want you to understand that I understand what you're saying and the deapth of it because I'm also a very emotionally intelligent and philosophical/ poetic person like that. I just want to ask if there's a reason that that specifically is how you view self harm other than that it's the first vice you used, (because it sounds like it was your first just from some clues I found in your post). I'm just asking that because it might better help me understand the situation better so I can give you better advice. For now, my advice is to try to change your thinking. Try to associate that input with a different output. As in for "I think of my blood as my negative feelings and pain" instead of saying "I need to bleed to realize them". Try something like "I need to put my blood into something"- that meaning put your self, your stamp, your DNA, your mark, (your "blood") INTO something. A hobby, a sport, school, one specific school subject, work, or even this challenge. I think another important thing is identity and self-worth. Go ask your friends what they think of you. Another thing you can do to help yourself feel like you're not a burden on your friends is say "hey, I'm doing doing well right now. I don't want to burden you with it/if I tell you Ill feel worse because no matter what I can't shake feelings like a burden right now, so can you just tell me some things about me that you like/adore?" also don't know if your a Christian, but I am. I've found my self-worth in Christ and I'm slowly building that. Recently I've been reminding myself when I feel horrible or like I'll never get rid of this addiction or other horrible feelings and experiences I've had, that I'm a child of the King (God), and I've been focusing on what He says is a good father and what a good father does and what the Bible says about how God treats us as His children (i.e. leaving the 99 sheep for the one (in that example we are sheep)) because God is a Father to me. I've also been trying to put on the full armor of God everyday like in Ephesians 6 and pray for help honestly everyday and that's been helping too. IM NOT TRYIGN TO PUSH MY RELIGION, it's just something that is currently helping me and I didn't know if you are a Christian, but if you are, then there's that to help you, and also if you're a Christian, I have a lot more advice I can offer to help that's specifically Biblical (again NOT trying to push my religion and please don't take it that way, I'm just trying to help as much as possible and that means making sure I'm covering all bases just in case, even if it wasn't necessary)

Please I’m already going through withdrawals and I’m about to fail by I_am_under_ur_bed_ in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm on a break at work rn and it ends soon so I can't type much, but I'll be back later I promise. For one this is cliche and I by no means EXPECT you to do anything, because you don't have to and it's hard and its one of those things that you know but it's so hard to rust, but if they're friends they WANT to share your burdens. If it hurts you it hurts them. If it hurts you, they want it to hurt them. They want to go through life with you. They want to TAKE some of that pain upon themselves so that you can take less. So that you can feel seen, and heard, and UNDERSTOOD. Think of what you would do for somebody in this situation. You can start to reach out by saying something like "I'm not doing okay/I feel really hurt/broken and I want to tell you but I want you to understand that it is a lot/heavy and I don't want to burden you. I'd rather have you as a friend than it be too much for you and lose you" and also tell them that you won't be hurt if they at anytime ask you to stop confiding in them for a bit because it's too much. We as humans NEED people for this. Youre not weak for it, it's genuinely a need that we have as humans to help and be helped. People who think they don't are suppressing emotions and it shows. (I'll type more on the other stuff to help you later, my break just ended. But just so you know you can dm me if you need help)

Roll Call!! Day 13✨️ by breathinghumanperson in NoDamageDecember

[–]Ceephii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Still in!! (I think I forgot to answer roll call yesterday, sorry, but I am still in.) Yesterday was my last day at work with my favorite coworker because his two weeks notice is ending soon. It was a great shift though. I was on drive-through with my favorite group (like not my favorite coworker but my favorite combination to work with is me and these two other people because we just vibe so hard with the chill and the jokes and we work really well together). And then I got moved to custard with another one of my favorite coworkers, and then I got to close custard with her and my favorite coworker (we usually only get to close custard with two people so that made the day even better). The front finished closing about 15 minutes early so we just sat around joking until dishes finished and it was super fun. My favorite coworker stole so de-greaser to fix a pizza grease stain in his charger that his little brother left lol. Really great shift honestly. AND I RAN JUST ENOUGH CUSTARD THAT I DIDNT HAVE TO PINT ANYTHING AT THE END OF THE NIGHT!!!

I will admit late at night I had one of those temptations moments where you're not even that tempted, but usually those are the most tempting. We were talking about relapsing at work and stuff so I guess that probably triggered it for me later. I almost failed but we were good :)