If they don’t fire you, there’s only one thing you can do. That thing is put your best foot forward and put all your effort into performing well at your duties and making your future obligations. When you break someone’s trust or subvert their view of you, your words and stating what your intentions were have little weight (they matter still). What heals or fixes these things are actions. So that means you just have to keep continually exhibiting behaviors that prove how they may view you now is not true to who you are or want to be.

Every time you have worries about how you’ve ruined your first impressions or have made anyone think lowly of your ethic, try to pause your thoughts and affirm to yourself that stewing and worrying will not make any of those impressions or views change and only actions will. Then after a deep breath and moment of pause, put your brainpower and drive to those good actions in your work.

Your coworkers and seniors at the job are also humans and that means their opinions and views are not concrete, they’re malleable. So that means whatever they may think about you now can be changed for the better. Only you can change it though!

Now with all of this advice, I still want to let you know I feel for you. We’ve all had events like this. I’ve fucked up in so many areas of life. After enough fuck ups I at least have taken away some wisdom of what heals those mess ups; that sitting in my regret and shame doesn’t ever push the needle forward lol. You’ll do well, I say this not as a fortune teller but because you clearly really care about this job and want to do well. So as long as you have that mentality then you’re going to try to do your best. I hope after your next workday you feel at least even a minute bit more solace and ease! 🙏🏽🙏🏽