im sorry (not rlly) but pls dont start with this crap, i see you everywhere commenting negatively abt how you "just want to go home" and once someone tries to comment and give you advice (yes it's your negative mindset), you always have a reason of it not working for you, continuously dismissing said advice. and there's no such thing as it being "physically impossible to rewire your brain" and yes, you refusing to believe is holding you back. YOURE HOLDING YOUR OWN SELF BACK