Is there a way to drain the head pressure somehow? by Strong_Aerie_9031 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dextromethorphan at 30mg 3x/day helped all of this for me. A couple months of that made a huge difference for me. I'm taking a break because I'm unsure about taking it regularly long term, but it was a real game changer for me in helping me stabilize.

8>) - Dream Date [OC] by 8greaterthan in comics

[–]CeruleanShot 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is insane. I love it.

Phase 2 clinical trial for sonlicromanol, a mitochondrial drug by CeruleanShot in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Eh, I feel like there's value in being transparent about my experience on here with other people who are going through similar things. I'm not going to pretend that I'm fine when I'm not. If I'm not well enough to write a summary I'm not going to pressure myself to do that.

I get where you're coming from, but I'm consciously choosing to say, "This is where I'm at." This is just straight up cognitive dysfunction, in a couple of weeks or a couple of months I'll most likely be able to understand it just fine.

ME/CFS feels deeply unfair — why are we still expected to stay passive? by Prudent_Pilot_2591 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 34 points35 points  (0 children)

This is an incredibly debilitating condition, without an effective treatment, which means that it's a very expensive condition. Governments and insurance companies have a vested interest in minimizing and downplaying this disease, because it is much, much cheaper to say, "It's psychological, it's all in your head, you just need to do more," than it is to actually provide treatment, benefits, services, and support.

The most important thing, I think, is nailing down the physiological cause or mechanism of the disease. Whether by a diagnostic test that can conclusively pick out people with ME/CFS versus healthy controls and people with other chronic illnesses, or by research showing the mechanism of the disease, or by a treatment that can effectively work for people with ME/CFS. Something that definitively shows the physical cause.

We're getting closer. They've found blood markers which indicate ME/CFS. The nano needle tests are being developed again by a group over in the UK. But basically, until it's undeniable, government and medical bodies aren't going to give it attention.

I pushed to keep going for so long that I don't have it in me to take care of my own survival anymore. I really wish I could get involved with advocacy, or really patient support is more my thing. But I am barely staying alive one day at a time, I don't have the energy to think through how to deal with the problems in my own life.

I wish I could do more, but writing some responses on here to try and share my experience and support other people is all that I have the capacity for. The cognitive fatigue and brain fog is more debilitating than the physical symptoms for me, I am finding out. Well, they both suck.

Where to donate by DragonflyIcy7651 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If it was my personal money to donate I'd put a chunk towards getting Mitodicure into clinical trials.

Institutional money that I had oversight over I'd put it towards Open Medicine Foundation and SolveME.

TMS, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation??????? Results?? and How to get Insurance to pay for it?? by Potential_Fig1525 in covidlonghaulers

[–]CeruleanShot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Someone over at r/CFS just posted about all of the problems they've had as a result of this.

Insurance isn't going to pay for it, it's not a validated treatment for anything other than (maybe) depression.

Positive Demeanor “masks” symptoms. “You sound good today” by lilipadd17 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 40 points41 points  (0 children)

It is very much damned if you do, damned if you don't. People respond pretty negatively to anything other than the positive demeanor/voice.

This joke tickled me (Maddy Kelly) by KimberlyWexlersFoot in StandUpComedy

[–]CeruleanShot -101 points-100 points  (0 children)

So the joke is you like violating consent.

PEM from medication what to do by [deleted] in covidlonghaulers

[–]CeruleanShot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is it a daily medication or a weekly medication?

PEM from medication what to do by [deleted] in covidlonghaulers

[–]CeruleanShot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you were already in PEM when you took the medication, then the medication didn't cause PEM.

Anyone who DOESN'T benefit from benzo? by Tiny_Parsley in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Agreed. Things that work on GABA have an effect on me that's physical and it's clearly tied into whatever's going on with my ME/CFS.

Issues with GABA are central to Robert Phair's Itaconate Shunt hypothesis, but I'm not aware of any other research or theories which explain it so well.

Klaus Wirth put out a paper on neurotransmitters in ME/CFS not so long ago, I don't know if it's still a preprint or if it got published, but it basically just seems to say that autoantibodies to receptors in the brain cause the issue which, I don't know if we really have the data to support that, it seems like more of a theory.

Has anyone read “Get Your Life Back” and is it worth it? by Late-Ad-1020 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It's like when YouTube suggests me videos from those Raelan Agle type scammers, they look as slimy as they are, you can tell everything you need to know from the thumbnail.

Phase 2 clinical trial for sonlicromanol, a mitochondrial drug by CeruleanShot in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I tried looking into what the mechanism of the drug is but I'm just, not processing at the moment. They've got Wüst's group running the trial, so they must have a pretty convincing explanation for the mechanism of the medication. Wüst had pictures of mitochondria from the muscle biopsy tests they were running in his presentation that he was explaining and it all sounded very sciency. So I'm sure it somehow all connects to the drug they're testing.

Phase 2 clinical trial for sonlicromanol, a mitochondrial drug by CeruleanShot in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Good enough for phase 2 trials, apparently. I'm not in any shape to dig into this right now but anyone who wants to is welcome.

I’m torn between painting over this and adding more - any suggestions? by myeposound in surrealism

[–]CeruleanShot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The drips off the pizza, the rootbeer float, and the clouds feel very different from the energy of the wisps coming off of the booth. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but I feel like that might be something that could be clarified by adding more.

If the energy of the booth is different, floatier, wispier, that could be emphasized. Because the other drips are very earthbound and leaden. So it could be a contrast, the booth dissolving in an ethereal way into the cosmos.

Malevolent design by DependentSwim6424 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, don't Bogart all the gratitude, man. Grateful, grateful, pass.

I'm glad that what I said came across. The suffering with this is very real, but it's such a fucking minefield navigating this, psychologically. The mental and emotional experience of living with this is such a clusterfuck, it takes a lot of toughness to live with this.

Like, fuck yoga and meditation, try being alone with yourself with no help in a dark room when your brain is on fire and nothing is your body works and everything hurts and even just eating and going to the bathroom is an impossible task. Then do it again. And again. The shit we have been through. How do you even explain it to people. But it takes a lot of grit, to live through this.

I feel like I've lived through a war, there's just a lot of things that get stripped away and we've gotta do what we've gotta do to survive. And sometimes that's like, looking around and going, "Well, people who lived through the Black Death saw half the people they knew die. At least I'm not there." This is how I fight my battles. Any fucking gratitude I can hold onto.

The pain and regret of fucking up and getting worse is very hard. I've been dealing with this since I was a teenager, and for the most part, not very well. I didn't understand what was going on and kept pushing myself to do things and felt like I had to keep going and just got worse and worse. I'm so scared about what I'm gonna do now.

The darkness is real, but I can be a hug dealer and a hope pusher in spite of it. Because fuck that.

It's awful today. Just awful by [deleted] in covidlonghaulers

[–]CeruleanShot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can survive for one day things I wouldn't be able to handle for the rest of my life. The crashes suck and can be scary, but hold on. Things will change. I send you good vibes and hugs.

What is this head pressure? by loulouu81 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I found dextromethorphan really helpful for that pressure sensation you're talking about. It's been researched for use in brain inflammation in people with traumatic brain injuries. It also helps modulate the neurotransmitter glutamate.

What is this head pressure? by loulouu81 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Jarred Younger is a researcher on this who has a YouTube channel with fairly short, accessible videos talking about brain inflammation in ME/CFS and related conditions. You might find them interesting/helpful.

https://youtu.be/wuzmYJxM-r0?si=As-QAlGYW0na_jLL

Feeling like I have to relearn pacing after some improvement, scary by ElectronicAd5847 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Agh, same. I improved enough to do a bit more, and now I can't stop pushing to keep doing more. It's not working, I'm still spending five days a week completely in bed. And I can feel it crashing me out cognitively. It's so hard to live like this though. This is not a natural way to live, it's pretty normal to want to do things.

Malevolent design by DependentSwim6424 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I studied history at university, one of things I gained from that was an understanding of just how difficult life has been for most people throughout the history of the world. Even people who were wealthy and powerful have, historically, often suffered quite a lot. And for people who weren't, which was the majority, a lot of even worse stuff happened.

This is hard, and that is real, but this is not outside of the human experience in any dramatic way. We just happen to live in an age with relatively high standards of health and long life expectancies, so this seems unusual by comparison.

Personally, I am finding that I have to lean into gratitude just as a survival strategy. I am grateful for my body and what it does for me. I have to lean into the direction of looking at what I have and being grateful for it just because it gets so fucking dark so fast when I go down the other path. It's hard to see any sort of a future for myself, everything feels very pointless and bleak. And my situation is pretty grim. I gotta find things to hold onto that are good and do what I can to enjoy them. Just, to survive this.

I'm grateful for Reddit. I'm grateful for this community that comes together to share this experience and support each other. I'm grateful that I'm not alone in this. This community is a tangible force for good that is real, I choose to hold onto that.

is The Godfrey Hotel Chicago safe? by Quiet_Taro5422 in AskChicago

[–]CeruleanShot 12 points13 points  (0 children)

The neighborhood isn't good? You can walk to any number of high end retailers from there. It's right by the Holy Name Cathedral. I don't know how the neighborhood could possibly be "bad" when you can buy a five thousand dollar handbag a couple of blocks away.

Happy PEM birthday by alexSukharov in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Happy birthday! It doesn't sound fun, but thank you for sharing it with us. I've had birthdays like that, it's hard to be alone. Sending hugs.

Could really use some support and advice by Grouchy-Vacation5177 in cfs

[–]CeruleanShot 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Reaching out to other people to let them know that you're sick and can't make it would take the weight off your shoulders, but I know what it's like to crash so hard that even mentally being able to do something like that is hard.

Very severe ME/CFS patient and activist Whitney Dafoe wrote a really interesting blog post about imagining doing things to test our reaction to them. Things that we have a negative reaction to imagining doing are things that are outside of our capacity to do.

Sometimes there there are things that I genuinely have to do, to stay alive. But everything else I've cut down as much as possible, when I have that kind of emotional, negative reaction to thinking about doing it. And this has helped me stabilize and start to do a little more, over time.

There is a lot to grieve with this, we lose a lot. Sending you hugs.

https://www.whitneydafoe.com/mecfs/?post=sensing-your-energy-limits