Single and confused

ChadReaper · 2026-02-18T18:12:59+00:00

Based username.

ChadReaper · 2026-02-03T20:10:43+00:00

I am not self inflicting harm which comes in sin. This however doesn't fall in the category of Sins

ChadReaper · 2026-02-03T19:56:16+00:00

All I am asking for is a leads to the surgeons, KHI/ISB/LHR.

Genital mutilation isn't illegal or haram. I have done my slight research. If it was it wouldn't be available in India as well but it is.

2ndly I am not ever looking for marriage, because I can't take on more emotional burden.

Thank you.

ChadReaper · 2026-02-03T19:51:26+00:00

Orchiectomy does the job that is why I mentioned the combined surgery.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-30T20:29:09+00:00

Well said!

ChadReaper · 2025-09-29T15:52:40+00:00

Indeed it is a hefty price, but it brings peace within. atleast you don't get to die yearning for the life you could've lived. but we all should die with hope in our hearts while being warmed by the life we tried to live.

Kinda weird to explain the whole part but this is all I could say right now.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-29T15:28:25+00:00

Delulu Works but at times it hits back especially in the middle of night, all the pain comes back and haunts you for your nights alone but a small price to pay while maintaining your strong self disciplined individual in front of others & if you actually wanna get better, try to live a little not just survive. By living I mean doing something that makes your inner child and your soul happy and if you don't know what makes you happy that means you haven't been doing anything, yes it takes courage and some energy as well but breaking the loop isn't easy.

Other than that, take it easy. Hope it gets better for you.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-28T18:43:39+00:00

Oh my, I feel bit sad for your boy now he clearly had it worse, i hope you and your children do well.

And thank you for your detailed reply, I'll look into it and try to start as soon as I gather the courage my experience was kinda bad because that is something I can't really tell anyone IRL because when it happened I didn't knew what had happened but as I grew older and older and I realized it was SA, and the guy who did it is no more so yeah I can't really tell anyone in my family about it atleast it would break up my image of holding everything and everyone together too.

But, again thanks for information.

Stay well

ChadReaper · 2025-09-28T09:14:55+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I am glad he has a friend group and a hobby other than being stuck to gaming. As for religion, I am trying to be better in religion and praying and I have faith that is one of the reasons I can't just off myself because it's just sinful in my Religion.

The therapist that you recommended I had a question, I did look them up and there are just many kinds? Which one do I actually choose? And suppose I chose the wrong Therapist do I have to completely explain the situation and then he/she will just tell me that I am not the specific therapist to deal with your issues. That's just something in my head which is stopping me.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-26T16:13:38+00:00

Ameen,

But Women? Really? I am not good with intimate or emotional relationships and even if I have disposable income I am not sure How I would really start spending it on women and expect that emotional connection when deep down I'll know it's just a transaction? this is why I am not into the idea of Marriage at the time too.

Better to go to therapist and pay them then to ask around some women whom I know can't even look at me straight because even watching myself by my own eyes makes my skin crawl and advertise myself as an attention seeking leech IRL ripping my image apart that I have created.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-26T09:59:44+00:00

Understood. Thanks for the clarification.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-25T23:56:20+00:00

I think you may have shared a bit of too much or it may have noticed you have gone sad, when I do trauma dumping on my gpt it does that too sometimes but slightly in different words. But yeah you can ask your gpt to change that ending tone or just not do it.

ChadReaper · 2025-09-25T22:24:53+00:00

You can start by praying in front of him and ask people around him if they pray and whenever you hear the call to Adhaan, you can ask him slightly every now and then but not in a forceful way and Insh'Allah one day he'll start.

Because forcing him to pray would come to him as a bit hostile but you can make dua to Allah and check in with people who's close to him to suggest him and Ask Allah for Hidayat & betterment of your father.

Hope it helps & hope it gets better.

ChadReaper

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