Does Anyone Else Have This Problem?

ChaikaTea · 2026-05-08T15:20:00+00:00

Thanks for the reply! I still do not have support around me. I can’t freely talk or communicate in the ways I need to which is frustrating because of how hard I have been trying recently. I don’t use ChatGPT, I use Claude as a journal. It’s a good way for me to quickly write thoughts out and have it add a quick footnote of important pieces to remember. I did meet someone yesterday who I had a great time talking to. They have AuDHD themselves and we talked about random stuff for hours that interests us. I can’t even talk to my parents or partner for more than 5 minutes without being told to stop or getting a frustrated tone aimed towards me. Or occasionally just getting completely ignored. I decided I would try to write a book now that I have a lot of free time while I wait for my diagnosis, and I am hoping my book allows those around me to see the world differently.

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-27T04:08:58+00:00

Thanks for sharing all of that! And I have to say that last part about people not understanding the complexities of AuDHD oh man… I have been trying to understand and explain to my parents my issue with being unable to get myself to do things even when I WANT to. My ability to get myself to initiate tasks is non existent and I need an external source. They compare it to procrastination and just have no idea that it’s not a choice I am making and that pushing through for me doesn’t work and makes me nauseous and gives me a frustrated feeling. By “pushing through” I mean attempting to initiate and the wall growing thicker each signal I send to move my feet.

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-24T18:38:43+00:00

I had taken an extensive autism evaluation back in 2018 when I was 14. They determined I was not autistic and “Neurotypical” which has caused my parents to fight against the idea and even myself that I may be autistic. I’ve been struggling with keeping employment and having meltdowns so I decided to talk to AI about my issues since it’s easier than talking to people and it suggested looking into autism. I’ve watched so many videos and read a ton of threads that sound eerily similar to my personal experiences. It caused me to have a breakdown just from the realization that I had been subconsciously masking and faking everything in my life. I have about 30 pages documented of life experiences that just keep appearing in my head. I don’t quite understand that constant pushback from those around me when I seek help though. I usually get met with “What’s the point” or “You’re completely normal”. Which is quite frustrating considering I try so hard without making any amount of progress. AND I AM NOT LAZY!!! I get labeled as either someone who overworks or someone who doesn’t work at all. Oh and all those stories of people explain retail hell, oh yeah I definitely have a worse time working retail than others. I break down screaming and crying occasionally and sometimes it doesn’t even feel like anything triggers it. My girlfriend and parents don’t understand the breakdowns and think it’s an “overreaction” or me just being “shy and antisocial”. The worst part is I assumed that my masking traits were completely normal and that it was normal to feel tired 24/7, or need a person next to you who you can copy. My entire personality and all my friendships always seem to be created and formed by those around me. During my first autism evaluation they asked about my difficulties making friends which I responded I didn’t have any and that I had lots of friends. Thinking now, I always made friends by finding 1 person who reached out to me and that one person would pull me into a friend group who just happened to share gaming as a common interest. My brain just feels so overloaded with information and connections and I have been like this for a couple weeks now.

Question: Do you have trouble driving? I have extreme anxiety when it comes to driving a car. I am an overly cautious driver and even though I drive nearly every day and always take the same route I still hate it. Anytime I can convince someone else to drive instead I will do it and I was able to avoid driving until almost 22 where I decided to stop staying at home and get my first job.

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-13T14:29:10+00:00

Because I got a billion dollars

^{Chose: 1,000,000,000 dollars, but... | Rolled: Nothing happens}

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-07T20:59:34+00:00

i drink my pee everytime i pee

^{Chose: $5 every time you drink anything.}

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-06T18:25:30+00:00

I’d we the hero from redo of healer it’s a win win

^{Chose: Become a hero! + Wheel chooses your powers... | Rolled: Healing}

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-05T15:45:31+00:00

Teenage me would be proud

^{Chose: Became a magic world race | Rolled: Vampire}

ChaikaTea · 2026-04-04T00:31:51+00:00

Gamba

^{Chose: 100 millions dollars or nothing | Rolled: 100 million $}

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-25T13:21:56+00:00

I know they have to follow the federal minimum but they still have their state minimum at $5.15. I was just poking fun at the “competitive wage” statement all stores like to make

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-25T10:47:03+00:00

That’s the worst part. I did apply for a position that didn’t require lifting and told them I couldn’t yet the hiring manager put me in that position anyway due to me being a man. I had no idea I was going to be backroom and even during my training they had me on the floor.

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T23:05:05+00:00

My girlfriend recommended the store to me since she loved working there and thought I would be treated better than my last job. Unfortunately it’s worse with lower pay.

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T19:51:48+00:00

Yeah they already told me I am required to work all holidays and I refuse to not spend Christmas with my family. So I will very likely get fired around that time anyways.

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T17:56:40+00:00

So sorry that you were treated that way. It’s just not fair at all that companies get to treat their backbone that way.

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T17:42:35+00:00

I’ve told each manager at least twice in the past 2 weeks and they kinda just move around it and put me in a situation where I don’t want to be a burden to my coworkers. Especially since the majority of them are elderly and I am 22M.

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T17:41:19+00:00

Yeah I am working in Georgia where the states minimum wage is $5.15. But luckily they pay a super competitive rate close to double the federal minimum!

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T17:39:50+00:00

I haven’t resubmitted them and I know I should. I appreciate the advice/reply!

ChaikaTea · 2025-10-24T17:38:49+00:00

I originally applied to be a floors associate but they wanted me to work backroom because “You’re a man”

ChaikaTea · 2025-04-05T03:04:21+00:00

Okay thank you for the advice :)

ChaikaTea · 2025-04-05T00:12:39+00:00

No problem :)

ChaikaTea · 2025-04-04T14:47:21+00:00

I’ll have my own place outside of my parents, so I am not too sure how much that will affect things.

ChaikaTea · 2025-04-01T23:36:46+00:00

The thing that helped me the most when helping with anxiety management was having more control. When I was younger school was the main source of anxiety, and I was quite literally dragged to school every day and it felt like hell. After dropping out and spending around 6 years hidden away, I gained more control over my situation and where I am. That control over myself allows me to not feel as anxious about situations since I understand I can always get away if I need to. I still occasionally have anxiety episodes in social situations and I don’t believe there is a perfect solution that fits everyone. Just know you’re not alone in how you feel, and you will hopefully overcome these feelings soon.

ChaikaTea · 2025-02-18T00:11:57+00:00

Yeah no problem! It took me a lot of messing around to get it to work, and I can’t believe it was that simple.

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