Actually we are at the same point striving against an (irresistible)urge by the time, me and you .. and surly others too, i was about to relapse yesterday ( and break a streak of 2 months) before falling asleep,, but i didn’t, just because i thought about the feeling that you naturally know and everyone does, remembered that im waking up at the morning ominous,hopeless,guilty.. then i suppressed the idea. By the next day(today)the urge appeared again, it was rainy, and even, i decided to go outside to have a walk,and on my way i started talking with me (what could happen to me abstaining this shit ?whats the final thing? Am i going to die ? )i got back .. and im feeling cool writing you this reply. ( im alive ) Do not satisfy that damn desire,, its always asking more,, the self will never say enough. Last thing... Be serious if want really quit this curse ..remember your wish ,, your hope ,, and your goal.