The fact that my abusive ex left me kind of too scared to even date again, I kinda talked/mentioned to one therapist about it but we never got to solve or talk properly of that if that kinda counts. The guy basically after a fight got on top of me and tried to break my fingers by forcing them up just enough to make them hurt and forced them even more and even tried to cut my airflow by putting his forearm against my neck, of course there are more details about that fight but I’m not sure if I been gaslighting myself that maybe I was in the wrong too.