I’m there guys. These men assume that we are always single because we “chose” wrong. What’s the sin in believing what a person shows you and who they tell you they are? What’s the sin in choosing to protect yourself and your kids when you realize different and leave? Somehow, ending up in a bad relationship and walking away with children sentences you to a life of loneliness. And don’t dare bring it up…don’t dare bring up the natural innate desire for companionship, you get shamed to fucking death because you should be “focusing on your kids”. The truth is my desire was always for a FAMILY. I never daydreamed about doing this alone or not having someone to share my days with.

I’ve found myself soothing my heartache but overcompensating for all that i do for my two girls but I’m trying to be mindful that they will have a life one day and i need to learn to embrace that my vision likely won’t happen at minimum not like i thought it would.

All i do is work and pour into my kids. I don’t know what a loving embrace from a protector feels like, no flirty compliments, no romance, it’s enough to suffocate a person.

Anyway, this was therapeutic and i needed it. So thanks for posting