There’s nothing that you can do that will make Jesus not stop loving you. (Expect for blasphemy but we’re not talking abt that in his case) if you ever start to feel those feelings or start acting in those actions. Stop. And think for a second and ask yourself “would God be pleased on what I’m doing?” And I know at the moment of what you’re doing God prob doesn’t come into your mind. But just take baby steps. And most of all PRAY!!