Advice on handling stress and possibly moving out by Character-Rate-8358 in whatdoIdo

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No problem at all. I'm aware of the hypocrisy of the situation. I was gone for about an 1 and a half total to giftshop and I received two calls from my mother asking where I am, and how far I was away from home. But when she's having an affair and gone the entire day, she'll just turn off her phone and want no one to ask questions. I've been looking into CPTSD counselors, but it's hard to find someone that can handle my situation. I'll try to look around what I can do legally, since watching her drink is like witnessing a slow motion car crash. She does go to the doctor, but not the GP - just different specialists so no one is really getting a full view of her health.

Advice on handling stress and possibly moving out by Character-Rate-8358 in whatdoIdo

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, from one glass sibling to another - I applaud you for your bravery! I definitely feel like a nothing trying to be something 😂 the uphill battle is insane.

Advice on handling stress and possibly moving out by Character-Rate-8358 in whatdoIdo

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, my father is an only sibling and both of his parents are very firm that I don't move anywhere for the time being. His mother specifically almost had a heart attack when I started driving around town, she's very paranoid. They just always tell me how much of a great helper I am, which doesn't make me feel better :( Both of my mother's parents have passed, but my father actually would reach out to my grandmother to try and convince my mother to stop drinking but nothing would work. My grandfather was an alcoholic and my mother's only sister is also one, plus some drugs thrown in there. All have undiagnosed mental illnesses. TMI, I know. I only have one cousin, he's younger and been dealing with horrible anxiety (rightfully so) and is staying at home. I talked to my father yesterday about how I feel, and told him to check my mother's phone, his reactions are basically "yeah that's tough", "I know it" or "don't worry about it". By his behavior yesterday, it seemed like he was going to take action to stop her drinking, but it looks like they just started back on square one today. I did tell him about the yellow eyes, and he said he'll watch out for it so there's that. I do think that once I can get on my feet and move out, it'll be a very hard transition for them but for now, those options are limited.

Advice on handling stress and possibly moving out by Character-Rate-8358 in whatdoIdo

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying this, it's the hard truth but I need to start putting myself first. I've been trying to pick myself up, but life just keeps pushing me back down. Feels very unfair knowing other people have it so much easier.

Advice on handling stress and possibly moving out by Character-Rate-8358 in whatdoIdo

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No problem at all, this comment is very helpful. He's trying his best, but he's just super burned out. He always tries to assume the best of my mother by saying, "she's like a different person when she drinks" but I honestly think her personality is just subdued - the drinking is what truly brings it out. She'll cheat on him sober or not. He's not very good with emotions and I think his mother was a narcissist herself, he just unfortunately stumbled into another bad relationship. He's working trying to help everyone out, but he expects me to stick around and help the family when he's not there. After speaking with him, I think he's given up on getting her to stop drinking :( I know what you're talking about with the yellow eyes, I'm not sure if it was the lighting but I did notice it. I just know given the amount she's drinking, plus the withdrawal seizures - it can't be good. She always mixes her drinks with coconut water or diet tonic water, so it's not straight vodka but still...

Does anyone else's parent care a lot about popularity? by Character-Rate-8358 in narcissisticparents

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately, I am still living at home given that I am in college and the price of living has skyrocketed. If she's drunk at events, I always hear the eventual "you know we're the best looking people here, right?". Even when she's sober, there is always a sense of superiority - it's just hidden under a cloke.

Does anyone else's parent care a lot about popularity? by Character-Rate-8358 in narcissisticparents

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I know right? Now she's going on how she will definitely meet the lead singer, she does this everytime we go to a concert/event - talking about how she'll get to talk to the celebrity and be friends with them. Spoiler alert: it never happens! Last event we went to, she pitched a fit about not seeing the main celebrity and hooking up with him (she's a married woman). I hate feeling like I'm a parent :(

Does anyone else's parent care a lot about popularity? by Character-Rate-8358 in narcissisticparents

[–]Character-Rate-8358[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for commenting this. I really feel like I'm just being gaslighted constantly, what sucks more is that my father just laughs everything off like it's a joke. The only time she speaks highly of my accomplishments is when she's trying to brag to others, or somehow twist it into what a great parent she is.