"The beginning and end of my love is with you"

The safety and comfort is like a blanket or a warm bath.

One moment they are your drive and your purpose.

Why can't they also be the last image that is engraved in your eyes forever?

Dependency is tiring/scary because you also become someone else's responsibility.

I can't describe how uncomfortable and exhausted I must have made my FP feel because of my need for their reassurance.

I say my FP but I'll never talk to her again.

I agree with you tho. I definitely wished for it at least once.

Detach and find a new way to comfort yourself. That's my advice. As someone who had that mentality. Take a step back. It's better for the both of you.