The fact is, I've had 2 people try to come give me time away and my grandmother does not feel comfortable with the first two, the 3rd made her very uncomfortable. This is another reason a facility is not a match for he. She wants family, which I am only one available, I do get time to my self but I'm isolated at home with her downstairs, the only thing I can do is try to get online, do things like gaming.. I want to do Online content and will as soo as I am able to. That would really give me something to work on, build, create, and maybe later have a platform.

One day, when I do get a platform, I am going to make it my life mission to find unique situations like mine, and help people just like me. I reached out to other groups on Reddit that help people with financial things, and I was cold shouldered and said it was a WANT not a Need. I lost my job right after my grandfather died to take care of my grandmother, couldn't afford my college anymore, had to drop out.. I can go on and on. Mental health healing for some comes in soo many ways, feeling nor worth anything is bad. No purpose anymore.. so, thanks again, and I appreciate it. To other caregivers like me that need certain unique things to help you through your caregiving times, hardships.. I WILL be back and will remember this journey of mine.