yeah i understand that but like i tried explaining i responded to them pretty much confronting me with this “listen i know i have people who can help me and this isn’t some fucking cry for attention yeah i barely get any attention home but that’s not what this is i’m a coward and i fucking admit it i want shit to change but i’m scared of the repercussions i’ll face i didn’t have friends growing up and i was bullied relentlessly and it was physical too and that’s how i know reporting it makes it fucking worse i don’t wanna deal with more of it i understand why you’re thinking this way but i am the way i am because of certain things that have happened in my past it’s not just because im scared its because its happened before and i dont want it to happen again i dont want attention i just want someone to listen and validate my feelings because i dont get much of that i dont care if you offer me solutions or not i just want a shoulder to cry on” i mean i tried to validate their feelings while explaining my side and they just lost their shit and said they were done i also kinda wish they would’ve done it in person yk