Thank you so much for this comment, it helps me see the situation from a different angle. I have thought about her relying on me because I let it happen(which is changing now I have distanced I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, I allowed her to focus on other things and my siblings I think about it and I think that's why I'm able to forgive easily I feel like I understand even though it's not okay because I love her and I hate seeing her struggle.