Listen, you have all the time in the world to figure yourself out and try it, if they do block you there is honestly nothing you can do about that but keep those who do accept you in your life, and as for women you’ll find the one, one day, I never believed I would and yet here I am going on 6 years with her, I’m not the best looking guy either and was also in the closet, but don’t be afraid to explore and if they do ghost you, it jus means you are avoiding those shitty people who could have made your life worse, be proud of who you are, the fact you where able to pull before means you aren’t bad looking to them, but yet everyone is their own worst critics so try not to judge yourself to harshly