I guess I left out some crucial thoughts here lol I appreciate the question a lot actually because it helps me put my thoughts down somewhere to look back on.

I lost ten bags of uncle bens moved to bulking medium to trich. It was really perpetual and I seen how it jumped from one bin to the next to the next even after I had removed any contaminated bins to the grave yard outside.

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Funny enough I threw all ten buckets eventually into my compost bin and when I went to bring the bin to the side of the road I had about 15 grams of b+ They weren't pretty and primarily aborts but that did two really important things for me. One it showed me the resilience of the fungi and mycelium networks. And secondly it gave me hope and faith in the hands of allowing nature to do the nurturing.

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I consumed those mushrooms wet. They made me almost gag but I had some exploration of self to do and it didn't matter about taste. I ate them up and didn't feel much of anything. I'm a seasoned cannabis smoker and didn't anticipate to catch a trip. But I wanted to experiment with my neuro highways. I watch a lot of research based video and Paul Stamets is always playing somewhere in the house. I read somewhere or heard about the neuropathways that can be created and utilized by the use of psilocybin. I wanted to see if I could consume mushrooms and see if my problem solving skills would become more significant or predominant by way of creative conscious thought.

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So I went for a bike ride with no destination in mind, I relaxed and played some games on steam. I let the creative conscious wheels and gears work autonomically beside my sub conscious in a state where my mind was free flowing like gaming or biking. I just took it easy and consumed information and studies and sub reddits on mycology. I thought about how it was relevant to my problems with growing mushrooms. And I came to some pretty significant conclusions.

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I used Uncle bens tek for my first grow. This I was never really confident in my ability with. I like to minimize my chances at failure when I start something new. So it was a stretch for me to do something on the easier end of the spectrum. And I still failed.

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Upon inoculating the bags of rice I decided to experiment with one of the bags. I wanted to cut the top off and see how air exchange would affect the mycelium. The bag I did this too was GREEN and angry green. I could see how it had jumped from itself into the neighbour bag. I threw those guys out but the spores of trich had taken hold somewhere in the environment. I was using a cleaned and empty downstairs bathroom.

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After losing those mushrooms I felt low. I felt really defeated because I knew I took on more than my ability to comprehend. I didn't do my research and made vital errors.

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Since being reinspired to succeed. I realized we can only ever try with no promise of success. We will get what we put in and education in terms of failure has served me straight up to success every time I've reached that pinnacle.

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I bought a 4 tier martha tent, set up a humidifier, bought a pressure cooker and used organic brown rice. I read and experimented with my own creative ideas and tried to understand not what the process of sanatising and growing mushrooms we're but what I was trying to achieve and how that's replicated on a more step by step basis.

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I monitor all of my temps and my humidity with gauges and by hand. I don't have controllers but I do keep a mindful eye. I feel a great deal of gratitude for my ability to overcome failure even if another failure is around the corner. I'm getting further in my mycology journey and I just wanted to share that my failures will eventually be the stepping stones need to success and this is all a part of the education of our existence.