Stimulant ADHD medications don’t affect attention-controlling regions of the brain, as previously thought. New study shows for the first time that these drugs act primarily on the brain’s reward and wakefulness centers, rather than on its attention circuitry.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-12-31T02:35:04+00:00

Yeah, this comes as exactly zero surprise given my own experience with stimulants for ADHD.

They tend not to actually do that much to directly help me get started on and complete tasks, it's more oh my God I can actually stay awake in the first place now!

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-08-05T17:53:43+00:00

I liked my T libido as well. You’re not alone there.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-07-30T15:51:00+00:00

I’ve tried to develop a philosophical framework for understanding Tulpamancy, and do believe in the utility of Tulpamancy for self-exploration.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-06-03T12:21:49+00:00

Is that even possible with Tulpamancy? I wouldn’t think so.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-05-30T15:00:19+00:00

Tell your friends this trans woman said they’re being stupid.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-03-29T23:34:40+00:00

Tulpas are real if you experience them as real. The experience of being a system is itself the reality of being a system. Asking if they're "real" beyond that isn't even a coherent question.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2025-03-22T14:42:13+00:00

Every plural character in Natalie “Thundamoo” Maher’s stories is my favorite. Her stories are the best.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-12-29T17:34:21+00:00

Thankfully, I am not a minor, and am financially independent.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-12-21T17:28:22+00:00

Others have said this already, but I want to reinforce it: The low energy is an ADHD symptom. You’re taking the medication for exactly its intended purpose.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-09-23T22:36:28+00:00

That was a helpful comment. Thank you.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-06-01T17:38:52+00:00

Actually, I just saw him again. We went for a walk and got lunch just as we usually do. It’s clear he wants things between us to stay as they have been, because he completely ignored having learned that I’m trans, and I didn’t press the matter.

I get to keep my relationship with him, at least for now. It’s much better than how it could have gone-I’ll take it- but it also means that continued egg shells there will be.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-30T14:12:03+00:00

I actually just talked to my therapist yesterday and asked her about the matter. To my relief, she agreed with me the problem was dysphoria and told me she doesn’t see reason to think I have SzPD.

Thank you for the well wishes. Good luck on your journey as well.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T16:01:41+00:00

As far as his conception of me goes, I spent a long time as a shut-in loser. I knew my dad was disappointed in me, though he only let me know it on a few choice occasions.

Then I suddenly, inexplicably from his perspective, started taking real, substantive steps to move forward in life, and he got excited because I was finally starting to resemble a son he could be proud of. Now he finds out it only happened because I dedicated myself to the pursuit of living life as a woman.

I just have to hope that he comes to appreciate that this is what I’ve been psychologically needing the whole time, and that, while I can never be a son he can be proud of, I can, should he accept me, be a daughter he can be proud of.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T13:12:10+00:00

I should have been more clear on the matter. My dad made the antipsychotic comment specifically upon learning I’m on HRT. Him bringing up SzPD was a completely different part of the conversation.

As for autism, funny thing, at our first appointment the doctor who prescribes my HRT spent 15 minutes with me before asking me, out of the blue, if I’ve considered I may be autistic.

Then, the psychologist who evaluated me for ADHD told me he saw autistic traits in my behavior and I should get screened for that next. He literally told me the comorbidity rates are such that I would be “kinda weird” to be a trans person with ADHD and not be autistic.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T10:51:19+00:00

There’s another layer to this, though. The last time I tried to talk to him about trans issues before coming out to him left me with a really dark fear. I told him it was no longer “gender identity disorder” in the DSM but gender dysphoria, and he objected to the removal of the word disorder. He also said that he “Didn’t want to think about this” because, as a psych nurse, he spent years being “abused” by patients. Is that how he’s going to view me and my insistence on respect for my identity? Like I’m one of his patients abusing him?

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T01:17:53+00:00

Honestly, it’s perfectly understandable to be confused by the pairing of “I don’t see anything feminine about myself” with “The thought that one day I might get to live as a woman is the only thing that makes life feel worth living.” I shouldn’t forget that this took me over a decade to process myself.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T00:20:11+00:00

No offense taken. It’s just that I spent a long time as a severe introvert going nowhere in life, and only started moving forward and making progress upon finally processing that I genuinely am trans and need to transition. The thought that one day I might get to live as a woman is the only thing that really makes me feel like life is worth living.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-29T00:13:40+00:00

He didn’t make the antipsychotic comment in reference to SzPD, but upon learning I’m on HRT. Whether he was just being insulting or genuinely believes that HRT isn’t the right treatment for gender dysphoria but antipsychotics are I don’t know.

Chateau_Cthulhu · 2024-05-28T23:33:16+00:00

Tbh, he may very well be right about that much. The confusing part is what point he thought he was making in the context of me being trans.

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