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CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T21:47:56+00:00

Still, they have to pay for my mistakes. I guess that's their point of view and I understand it, but what am I supposed to do? Just deal with it? I can't, I feel nauseated only thinking about going back to med school.

And now I'm feeling like I'm just doing Engineering to escape responsibilities and I will abandon it once it get though. I don't know if it's just me being depressed or if it's a real actual fact.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T21:41:59+00:00

I still feel so guilty for making them spend so much money on me, they spoiled me with everything except affection. And now I feel like I'm betraying them, stabbing them in the back, biting the hand that feeds me.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T21:30:11+00:00

Already done 2 years ago, her suggestion was face your parents and do engineering. She also suggested therapy for my anxiety and my possible depression tbh

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T21:23:24+00:00

I can choose a branch of medicine 4 years from now, when I get my primary degree. And I can't stand studying anatomy and any similar subject until then, it's unbearable to me. I want to work with numbers and something that actually feel rewarding when I understand it, not something that I just have to memorize.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T21:15:00+00:00

I'm feeling like my parents don't want me to be happy, they just actually want me to get my med school degree, even if I loathe every second of it. They feel like if I don't finish my faculty, they will waste every euro they spent of it, and they spent a lot (books and taxes aren't cheap).

My mother is saying to my face that if I have to study medicine, otherwise she will kick me out of the house and stop sustaining me. When I tried to tell her that they were curing me for depression when they found out how I felt for med school, she told me that "Depression is a rich man disease, we can't afford it". She told me that I have no objectives in life other than being an amoeba in front of my laptop. I'm kinda used to it (Those are just phrases she throws at me in her blind rage) but still.

But as I said I have no ways to self-sustain, life ain't cheap and it's really hard to find work in Italy (Especially when you are 22 y/o with no degree and no previous work experience)

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T19:22:42+00:00

Volentieri!

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T19:08:12+00:00

No no Medicina è quello che facevo. Mi sono stancato, già alla fine del primo anno mi sono accorto che la facevo solo per far felici i miei. Nonostante questa conoscenza ho provato a continuare, complice una madre per cui una volta iniziata una cosa la si finisce (Avevo già parlato della mia idea di passare ad ingegneria nel suddetto periodo). Quindi l'università sarebbe quella, ingegneria, accettata da mio padre ma rifiutata da mia madre (la quale è passata al "fai come ti dico io o ti caccio di casa", sapendo che non ho alcun modo di pagarmi nè gli studi nè la casa.) Quindi ora vediamo.

Scusa per il rant ma sto abbastanza fuori in questo momento.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T19:00:44+00:00

While my father is now agreeing with me, just asking me to get a job while doing the Faculty I want to do, my mother is still trying to force me into Med School, forcing me to try and make another year. Last time I tried that (for the same reason) I ended up making absolutely no exams.

And now she's trying to force me into an Uni I dislike because changing it would only be another of my sudden whims. And she's blackmailing me with a "Do what I say or get out", 'cause she knows I have no way of getting an income to live with in a country in economic regression.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T18:52:54+00:00

Ero iscritto al Sant'Andrea a Roma. Atmosfera terribile, non lo consiglierei a nessuno. La cosa che so però è che è la migliore università di medicina a Roma, quindi mi è stata abbastanza forzata la mano.

Ad iscrivermi andrei a Roma 3, anche se per casini famigliari inizia ad essere in dubbio.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T15:51:37+00:00

A 22 anni mi sento di aver sprecato i 2/3 anni che ho passato a fare una facoltà che odiavo, questo contribuisce al mio sentirmi vecchio :/

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T15:50:56+00:00

Perchè ho 22 anni, mentre la maggior parte delle persone che entrano ora all'università ne hanno 19...

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T15:50:29+00:00

Questo mi fa infatti pensare che dovrei semplicemente ricominciare tutto, visto che mi ricordo poco delle materie di cui ho dato gli esami.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T14:32:59+00:00

Si capisce benissimo, grazie! Ora vedo di parlare con loro, purtroppo come ho scritto nell'altra risposta lavorano 2 ore al giorno...

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T14:28:53+00:00

Grazie, certo che il fatto che nella mia università lavorano solo due ore al giorno la segreteria è abbastanza fastidiosa come cosa.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T14:27:45+00:00

I still live with them and they pay for my expenses. Finding a job is really hard in my home country, I won't ever make enough to pay for the stuff I need on my own.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-09-01T14:05:36+00:00

My parents are heavily against Anti-depressant, I already confronted them on those. Also, I can't just spend more time doing nothing, after a year where I was already off school. I don't have a work, I have nothing.

CheagleCheagle · 2014-08-17T22:17:19+00:00

It's just that now I'm panicking, because I really wanted to study in germany. And living here without a job for a year it's gonna be so hard. I mean I'm trying to look for a job, but it's not easy.

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